1 00:00:03,448 --> 00:00:04,551 1, 2, 3. 2 00:00:04,551 --> 00:00:05,896 NO, YOU GOT TO PULL MORE THAN THAT. 3 00:00:05,896 --> 00:00:07,517 Ashley: I'M JUST NOT PHYSICALLY CAPABLE 4 00:00:07,517 --> 00:00:09,793 OF DOING THINGS THAT I NEED TO DO. 5 00:00:09,793 --> 00:00:11,413 THANK YOU. OH. 6 00:00:17,034 --> 00:00:20,482 Woman: SOMEWHERE IN ME IS THIS LITTLE GLIMMER OF HOPE. 7 00:00:20,482 --> 00:00:23,137 I JUST WANT TO BE A NORMAL PERSON. 8 00:00:34,034 --> 00:00:37,137 YOU CAN'T DO IT, AND THEN I JUST GET MAD. 9 00:00:37,137 --> 00:00:38,793 Woman IF I DON'T MAKE A CHANGE NOW, 10 00:00:38,793 --> 00:00:40,827 I'M SCARED IT'S GOING TO BE TOO LATE. 11 00:00:44,586 --> 00:00:47,655 IT HURTS! 12 00:00:47,655 --> 00:00:50,034 Woman I REFUSE TO STOP FIGHTING. 13 00:00:50,034 --> 00:00:52,206 I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR MY CHILDREN. 14 00:00:57,827 --> 00:00:59,965 SO, WHAT'S THE POINT OF COMING HERE 15 00:00:59,965 --> 00:01:03,413 AND YOU GET DIET, GET MEDICINE, AND NOT LOSING WEIGHT? 16 00:01:03,413 --> 00:01:05,275 WHAT, DO YOU WANT MAGIC HAPPEN? 17 00:01:05,275 --> 00:01:08,275 --Captions by VITAC-- www.vitac.com 18 00:01:08,275 --> 00:01:11,275 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 19 00:01:32,862 --> 00:01:38,241 Ashley: MY LIFE HAS NOT TURNED OUT ANY WAY LIKE I THOUGHT IT WOULD, 20 00:01:38,241 --> 00:01:41,103 ALL BECAUSE OF MY SIZE. 21 00:01:41,103 --> 00:01:46,793 I'VE GOTTEN TOO BIG TO GET ALONG AND DO THE THINGS THAT I NEED. 22 00:01:46,793 --> 00:01:49,931 SO I'M FORCED TO DEPEND ON MY FAMILY TO DO THINGS FOR ME, 23 00:01:49,931 --> 00:01:52,793 EVEN THOUGH I HATE IT. 24 00:01:52,793 --> 00:01:55,172 AND BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH HELP I NEED NOW, 25 00:01:55,172 --> 00:01:56,827 I HAD TO MOVE BACK IN WITH MY PARENTS 26 00:01:56,827 --> 00:01:58,965 SO THAT MY MOM COULD HELP ME OUT. 27 00:01:58,965 --> 00:02:02,931 AND MY OLDEST DAUGHTER, ANIYA, HAS TO DO A LOT FOR ME, TOO. 28 00:02:02,931 --> 00:02:05,413 SHE'S 11, AND SHE HELPS A LOT 29 00:02:05,413 --> 00:02:07,517 WITH TAKING CARE OF MY YOUNGEST DAUGHTER, 30 00:02:07,517 --> 00:02:09,827 AMIYAH, WHO'S 9 MONTHS. 31 00:02:15,620 --> 00:02:19,103 ANIYA, CAN YOU PLEASE BRING YOUR SISTER, 32 00:02:19,103 --> 00:02:21,413 PUT HER IN THE BED, AND GET THE WALKER FOR ME? 33 00:02:23,448 --> 00:02:26,827 I FEEL LIKE ANIYA IS TAKING TOO MUCH ON AS A CHILD, 34 00:02:26,827 --> 00:02:29,344 BUT WITH AMIYAH, I NEED THE HELP. 35 00:02:29,344 --> 00:02:31,793 SO I HAVE TO RELY ON HER A LOT. 36 00:02:31,793 --> 00:02:33,689 I'M JUST NOT PHYSICALLY CAPABLE 37 00:02:33,689 --> 00:02:35,482 OF DOING THINGS THAT I NEED TO DO 38 00:02:35,482 --> 00:02:37,448 FOR MYSELF AND FOR MY CHILDREN. 39 00:02:49,379 --> 00:02:51,931 I'M ALMOST AT A PLACE OF IMMOBILITY 40 00:02:51,931 --> 00:02:53,620 BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND FOR LONG, 41 00:02:53,620 --> 00:02:55,862 AND I HAVE TO USE A WALKER TO GET AROUND. 42 00:03:00,689 --> 00:03:04,310 JUST WALKING, I'M AFRAID THAT I'M GOING TO FALL 43 00:03:04,310 --> 00:03:07,793 AND MAYBE HURT A HIP OR HURT A KNEE 44 00:03:07,793 --> 00:03:12,241 THAT THEY CAN'T GET IN MY BODY TO REPAIR. 45 00:03:12,241 --> 00:03:15,517 SO THIS IS NOT THE LIFE I WANTED OR ENVISIONED FOR MYSELF 46 00:03:15,517 --> 00:03:18,482 OR MY KIDS AT ALL, AND I WANT TO CHANGE. 47 00:03:20,793 --> 00:03:23,206 BUT AS LONG AS I CRAVE FOOD AND EAT IT LIKE I DO, 48 00:03:23,206 --> 00:03:24,689 IT'S GOING TO KEEP GETTING WORSE, 49 00:03:24,689 --> 00:03:26,172 BECAUSE WHEN THE CRAVINGS KICK IN, 50 00:03:26,172 --> 00:03:29,103 THERE'S NOTHING GOING TO STOP ME FROM EATING AT THAT POINT. 51 00:03:36,965 --> 00:03:38,551 OKAY, I'M GOING TO SCHOOL. 52 00:03:47,275 --> 00:03:51,068 MY MOM AND DAD HAVE TO WORK, AND MY DAUGHTER GOES TO SCHOOL, 53 00:03:51,068 --> 00:03:54,413 SO DURING THE DAY, I HAVE TO COOK FOR MYSELF. 54 00:03:54,413 --> 00:03:56,517 SO WE KEEP ALL THE UTENSILS AND PANS 55 00:03:56,517 --> 00:03:57,620 WHERE I CAN GET TO THEM, 56 00:03:57,620 --> 00:03:59,620 LIKE IN THE OVEN OR SOMEWHERE LOW 57 00:03:59,620 --> 00:04:03,448 BECAUSE I HAVE TO SIT AND COOK AND CAN'T REACH UP HIGH. 58 00:04:03,448 --> 00:04:06,586 SO ONCE THE DAY STARTS AND EVERYONE IS OUT, 59 00:04:06,586 --> 00:04:09,413 I JUST MAKE FOOD AND EAT UNTIL THEY GET HOME 60 00:04:09,413 --> 00:04:12,172 AND SOMEBODY ELSE CAN MAKE THE FOOD. 61 00:04:12,172 --> 00:04:15,724 BUT FOOD IS WHAT BRING ME HAPPINESS IN MY DAY EVERY DAY. 62 00:04:15,724 --> 00:04:17,758 IT'S HARD TO REALLY DESCRIBE ALL IT DOES FOR ME, 63 00:04:17,758 --> 00:04:19,655 BUT WHEN I EAT, 64 00:04:19,655 --> 00:04:22,586 I GET TAKEN TO A BETTER PLACE FOR A LITTLE WHILE. 65 00:04:22,586 --> 00:04:26,241 I CAN'T GO WHERE I WANT. I CAN'T DO WHAT I WANT, 66 00:04:26,241 --> 00:04:29,482 BUT IF I EAT THIS, I'LL BE WHERE I WANT, 67 00:04:29,482 --> 00:04:32,310 BECAUSE ANYWHERE WITH GOOD FOOD IS A GOOD PLACE. 68 00:04:32,310 --> 00:04:35,137 SO IT MAKES MY LIFE BETTER, AND IT GIVES ME THE HAPPINESS 69 00:04:35,137 --> 00:04:38,206 THAT I FEEL THAT I'M MISSING OUT ON. 70 00:04:38,206 --> 00:04:39,862 AND IT HAS NEVER FAILED ME AT DOING THAT, 71 00:04:39,862 --> 00:04:41,103 BECAUSE FOOD HAS BROUGHT ME 72 00:04:41,103 --> 00:04:43,862 SO MUCH COMFORT THROUGHOUT THE YEARS. 73 00:04:43,862 --> 00:04:46,758 BUT, YOU KNOW, I KNOW THAT FOOD IS WHAT'S TAKEN MY JOY IN LIFE 74 00:04:46,758 --> 00:04:50,517 FOR ME NOW BECAUSE OF HOW MUCH I EAT. 75 00:04:50,517 --> 00:04:52,793 AND I NEVER THOUGHT WHEN I WAS YOUNGER 76 00:04:52,793 --> 00:04:56,000 THAT THIS IS WHERE MY LIFE WOULD BE. 77 00:04:56,000 --> 00:04:59,482 I NEVER DID PICTURE BEING 600 POUNDS. 78 00:05:04,137 --> 00:05:06,862 MY CHILDHOOD WAS REALLY ROCKY FROM EARLY ON. 79 00:05:06,862 --> 00:05:09,310 I HAVE THREE OLDER SISTERS AND THREE OLDER BROTHERS 80 00:05:09,310 --> 00:05:11,275 AND A BROTHER THAT PASSED AWAY, 81 00:05:11,275 --> 00:05:12,655 SO THERE WERE FIVE OF US AT HOME. 82 00:05:12,655 --> 00:05:14,517 BUT GROWING UP, EVERYBODY 83 00:05:14,517 --> 00:05:18,793 WAS KIND OF FOCUSING ON THEIR OWN THINGS. 84 00:05:18,793 --> 00:05:21,000 SO MOST OF THE TIME, ME AND MY SIBLINGS 85 00:05:21,000 --> 00:05:22,241 HAD TO HAVE A BABYSITTER. 86 00:05:22,241 --> 00:05:24,758 AND THAT'S WHAT LED TO WHAT I WENT THROUGH, 87 00:05:24,758 --> 00:05:26,827 BECAUSE THE PERSON WHO BABYSAT US, 88 00:05:26,827 --> 00:05:30,379 HER BOYFRIEND WAS THE PERSON THAT MOLESTED ME. 89 00:05:32,413 --> 00:05:35,448 THE FIRST I REMEMBER, I THINK I WAS ABOUT 5. 90 00:05:35,448 --> 00:05:38,793 EVERY TIME THE BABYSITTER WAS OVER, IT WOULD HAPPEN THE SAME. 91 00:05:38,793 --> 00:05:41,000 SHE WOULD FEED US OR GIVE US SOMETHING TO DRINK, 92 00:05:41,000 --> 00:05:43,172 AND THEN I'D FALL ASLEEP AND THEN WAKE UP, 93 00:05:43,172 --> 00:05:47,310 AND...THE MAN WOULD BE ON ME. 94 00:05:47,310 --> 00:05:50,758 AND I HATED THAT. 95 00:05:50,758 --> 00:05:52,344 BUT THAT WENT ON FOR YEARS, 96 00:05:52,344 --> 00:05:54,689 AND THOSE ARE MY EARLIEST MEMORIES. 97 00:05:54,689 --> 00:05:57,241 BUT I FELT LIKE THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO ABOUT IT 98 00:05:57,241 --> 00:06:00,482 OR ANYONE I COULD TELL, SO I DIDN'T. 99 00:06:00,482 --> 00:06:04,137 BUT I THOUGHT, MAYBE IF I GOT BIGGER AND STRONGER, 100 00:06:04,137 --> 00:06:05,896 I COULD START TO FIGHT HIM OFF. 101 00:06:05,896 --> 00:06:09,724 SO WHAT I DID WAS I ATE TO GET BIGGER. 102 00:06:09,724 --> 00:06:12,517 AND OVER THE NEXT YEAR I PUT ON MAYBE 100 POUNDS, 103 00:06:12,517 --> 00:06:16,137 BECAUSE BY THE TIME I WAS 6, I WEIGHED 150 POUNDS. 104 00:06:16,137 --> 00:06:19,482 AND I JUST KEPT EATING TO TRY TO GET EVEN BIGGER, 105 00:06:19,482 --> 00:06:24,413 AND THAT JUST LED ME TO 250 WHEN I WAS 7-YEARS-OLD. 106 00:06:24,413 --> 00:06:28,862 MY SIZE NEVER REALLY HELPED ME TO STOP WHAT WAS HAPPENING. 107 00:06:28,862 --> 00:06:32,689 I FOUND OUT ABOUT IT BECAUSE ONE OF THE COUNSELORS AT SCHOOL 108 00:06:32,689 --> 00:06:34,620 CALLED AND TOLD ME 109 00:06:34,620 --> 00:06:38,068 THAT ASHLEY HAD REVEALED THAT SHE HAD BEEN MOLESTED. 110 00:06:38,068 --> 00:06:42,034 I TRIED TO FIND WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED. 111 00:06:42,034 --> 00:06:44,620 AND AT THAT POINT, SHE KIND OF TOLD ME A LITTLE BIT, 112 00:06:44,620 --> 00:06:48,103 BUT IT WASN'T SOMETHING SHE REALLY WANTED TO LET OUT. 113 00:06:48,103 --> 00:06:51,172 SHE WAS MORE EMBARRASSED, LIKE IT WAS HER FAULT, 114 00:06:51,172 --> 00:06:54,448 RATHER THAN A SITUATION THAT SHOULD'VE BEEN HANDLED. 115 00:06:56,482 --> 00:06:59,724 Ashley: BUT WITH MY MOM KNOWING, IT WAS A BIG RELIEF, 116 00:06:59,724 --> 00:07:02,379 BECAUSE SHE MADE SURE IT STOPPED. 117 00:07:02,379 --> 00:07:06,034 BUT I KEPT EATING TO GET BIGGER, AND BY THE TIME I WAS 10, 118 00:07:06,034 --> 00:07:08,931 I WAS ALREADY OVER 300 POUNDS. 119 00:07:08,931 --> 00:07:11,517 AND AFTER A FEW YEARS WHEN I WAS 13 120 00:07:11,517 --> 00:07:13,689 IS WHEN IT GOT TO A BREAKING POINT, 121 00:07:13,689 --> 00:07:17,413 BECAUSE I WAS GETTING CLOSE TO 400 POUNDS AT THAT TIME, 122 00:07:17,413 --> 00:07:19,896 AND MY BODY WAS PUTTING SO MUCH WEIGHT ON MY LEG 123 00:07:19,896 --> 00:07:22,482 THAT I WAS STARTING TO WALK LIKE A DUCK. 124 00:07:22,482 --> 00:07:24,586 MY KNEES WERE KICKING IN, 125 00:07:24,586 --> 00:07:28,068 AND MY FEET WERE PUSHING OUT. 126 00:07:28,068 --> 00:07:30,931 I WAS IN PAIN. I WAS HURTING. 127 00:07:30,931 --> 00:07:34,793 ONE DAY, MY KNEECAP CAME OUT, AND A LIGAMENT TORE. 128 00:07:34,793 --> 00:07:37,931 AND WHEN IT HAPPENED, I HAD TO HAVE AN EMERGENCY SURGERY. 129 00:07:37,931 --> 00:07:41,172 THEY PUT A METAL PLATE AND FIVE SCREWS IN MY LEG. 130 00:07:41,172 --> 00:07:43,482 I DIDN'T WANT HER TO GET THAT BIG. 131 00:07:43,482 --> 00:07:44,689 I WAS AFRAID FOR HER. 132 00:07:44,689 --> 00:07:46,965 I WAS AFRAID HER HEART WOULD GIVE OUT 133 00:07:46,965 --> 00:07:48,793 OR SOMETHING WOULD GIVE OUT, 134 00:07:48,793 --> 00:07:51,413 AND HER LEG DID. 135 00:07:51,413 --> 00:07:54,310 SHE HAD TO HAVE SURGERY ON BOTH KNEES, 136 00:07:54,310 --> 00:07:58,620 SO SHE WENT THROUGH A HARD TIME. 137 00:07:58,620 --> 00:08:00,758 Ashley: A YEAR LATER, WHEN I WAS 14, 138 00:08:00,758 --> 00:08:03,206 I HAD TO HAVE SURGERY ON MY OTHER KNEE, 139 00:08:03,206 --> 00:08:05,689 SO I WAS MISERABLE. AND IT GOT TO A POINT, 140 00:08:05,689 --> 00:08:07,931 I JUST WANTED IT TO ALL BE OVER, 141 00:08:07,931 --> 00:08:10,448 BECAUSE I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO BE LIKE THAT ANYMORE. 142 00:08:13,034 --> 00:08:16,137 BUT INSTEAD, I JUST KEPT USING FOOD TO ESCAPE THINGS 143 00:08:16,137 --> 00:08:19,172 AND JUST CONTINUED TO GET EVEN BIGGER. 144 00:08:19,172 --> 00:08:21,655 AND I WAS A GOOD BIT OVER 400 POUNDS 145 00:08:21,655 --> 00:08:24,620 BY THE TIME I STARTED HIGH SCHOOL AT 14. 146 00:08:27,448 --> 00:08:30,482 IN SOME WAYS, I DIDN'T LIKE BEING THAT BIG, BUT IN OTHERS, 147 00:08:30,482 --> 00:08:33,413 I THOUGHT MAYBE IT COULD PROTECT ME FROM THE ONE THING 148 00:08:33,413 --> 00:08:36,931 I TRIED TO MAKE SURE WOULD NEVER HAPPEN TO ME AGAIN, 149 00:08:36,931 --> 00:08:39,206 BUT IT DID WHEN I WAS 15. 150 00:08:41,793 --> 00:08:45,413 I WAS WITH MY FRIEND AND MY BROTHER FRIEND WAS THERE, TOO, 151 00:08:45,413 --> 00:08:46,862 AND MY FRIEND, SHE LEFT. 152 00:08:46,862 --> 00:08:48,758 AND THEN I WAS THERE ALONE WITH HIM, 153 00:08:48,758 --> 00:08:50,482 AND THAT'S WHEN IT HAPPENED. 154 00:08:50,482 --> 00:08:52,034 HE RAPED ME. 155 00:08:54,034 --> 00:08:56,103 IT WAS BY A FRIEND. 156 00:08:56,103 --> 00:08:59,275 I WASN'T EXPECTING THAT, AND, LIKE, ONCE HE DID THAT, 157 00:08:59,275 --> 00:09:01,172 I JUST KIND OF FELT LIKE I WAS STUPID. 158 00:09:01,172 --> 00:09:03,103 LIKE, I FELT LIKE IT WAS MY FAULT, 159 00:09:03,103 --> 00:09:06,655 AND I STARTED EATING MORE. 160 00:09:06,655 --> 00:09:08,931 THAT MY ONLY DEFENSE I COULD TRY, 161 00:09:08,931 --> 00:09:12,551 BUT MY SIZE NEVER GAVE ME CONTROL OR PROTECTED ME, 162 00:09:12,551 --> 00:09:17,206 BECAUSE WHEN I GOT TO OVER 500 POUNDS WHEN I WAS 16, 163 00:09:17,206 --> 00:09:20,896 I WAS RAPED AGAIN BY ANOTHER FRIEND. 164 00:09:20,896 --> 00:09:23,413 I HAD A FRIEND THAT DID HAIR OR WHATEVER. 165 00:09:23,413 --> 00:09:26,275 I REMEMBERED I WENT, AND I SLEPT AT HER HOUSE. 166 00:09:26,275 --> 00:09:27,931 I FEEL SOMEBODY TOUCHING MY FEET, 167 00:09:27,931 --> 00:09:29,827 SO I WAKE UP, AND I'M LIKE, "WHAT THE HELL?" 168 00:09:29,827 --> 00:09:31,689 YOU KNOW, AND THERE'S A GUY. 169 00:09:31,689 --> 00:09:33,551 AND I'M LIKE, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?" 170 00:09:33,551 --> 00:09:35,862 I MADE IT CLEAR THAT I DIDN'T WANT TO BE TOUCHED, 171 00:09:35,862 --> 00:09:37,448 AND HE WAS ALL, "OKAY. YEAH. I'M-A LEAVE." 172 00:09:37,448 --> 00:09:41,413 SO I'M THINKING HE LEAVING, YOU KNOW, SO I RELAX MYSELF, 173 00:09:41,413 --> 00:09:45,344 AND THE MINUTE I RELAX MYSELF, HE DIVES DOWN. 174 00:09:45,344 --> 00:09:47,862 AND HE STARTS PULLING MY PANTS. 175 00:09:47,862 --> 00:09:50,931 AND I'M TRYING TO FIGHT HIM. 176 00:09:50,931 --> 00:09:52,413 BUT I COULDN'T STOP HIM, 177 00:09:52,413 --> 00:09:54,724 EVEN WITH MY SIZE AND HOW BIG I WAS. 178 00:09:54,724 --> 00:09:57,103 AND AFTERWARDS, I FELT SO POWERLESS 179 00:09:57,103 --> 00:10:00,344 MORE THAN ANY OTHER TIME, BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I DID, 180 00:10:00,344 --> 00:10:02,551 I COULDN'T STOP THAT FROM HAPPENING. 181 00:10:02,551 --> 00:10:05,689 SO I GOT REALLY DEPRESSED, AND I DROPPED OUT OF SCHOOL. 182 00:10:05,689 --> 00:10:07,206 BUT I JUST KEEP EATING, 183 00:10:07,206 --> 00:10:10,517 AND I WAS PROBABLY GETTING CLOSE TO BEING 600 POUNDS 184 00:10:10,517 --> 00:10:12,379 BY THE TIME I WAS 18. 185 00:10:12,379 --> 00:10:15,448 AND AFTER THAT, I STARTED LIVING REALLY RECKLESSLY, 186 00:10:15,448 --> 00:10:17,137 AND I WAS JUST EATING CONSTANTLY. 187 00:10:17,137 --> 00:10:20,206 AND I STARTED DRINKING, TOO, BECAUSE IT MADE ME FORGET. 188 00:10:20,206 --> 00:10:22,517 AND ALL THAT WENT ON FOR A WHILE. 189 00:10:22,517 --> 00:10:27,000 AND WHEN I'M 19, I GET PREGNANT. 190 00:10:27,000 --> 00:10:29,034 ONE NIGHT, WHILE I WAS OUT, I MET SOMEONE, 191 00:10:29,034 --> 00:10:30,586 AND WE STARTED SEEING EACH OTHER. 192 00:10:30,586 --> 00:10:32,241 AND I MOVED INTO HIS PLACE. 193 00:10:32,241 --> 00:10:34,724 BUT THEN WHEN I GOT PREGNANT, I TOLD HIM. 194 00:10:34,724 --> 00:10:36,827 AND HE MADE IT APPARENT TO ME 195 00:10:36,827 --> 00:10:40,103 THAT HE DIDN'T WANT A THING TO DO WITH THE BABY OR ME. 196 00:10:40,103 --> 00:10:42,344 AND I WAS ANGRY ABOUT BEING PREGNANT 197 00:10:42,344 --> 00:10:44,413 'CAUSE I FELT LIKE I HADN'T LIVED. 198 00:10:46,655 --> 00:10:48,482 AND AFTER I HAD MY OLDEST, ANIYA, 199 00:10:48,482 --> 00:10:50,689 I LEFT HER WITH MY MOM TO TAKE CARE OF HER, 200 00:10:50,689 --> 00:10:53,241 BECAUSE I COULDN'T HANDLE THAT THEN. 201 00:10:53,241 --> 00:10:56,241 I WAS 20, AND I STARTED EATING MORE HARD, 202 00:10:56,241 --> 00:11:00,000 DRINKING MORE HARDER. 203 00:11:00,000 --> 00:11:02,931 AND THEN WHEN I WAS 21, THINGS CHANGED FOR ME, 204 00:11:02,931 --> 00:11:05,586 'CAUSE I MET SOMEONE THAT I WANTED TO BE WITH, 205 00:11:05,586 --> 00:11:08,655 BUT HE HAD CONCERNS ABOUT MY WEIGHT. 206 00:11:08,655 --> 00:11:10,724 SO I DECIDED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE 207 00:11:10,724 --> 00:11:12,551 THAT I WANTED TO TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT. 208 00:11:12,551 --> 00:11:16,448 AND I TRIED TO LOSE AS MUCH AS I COULD SO THAT HE'D WANT ME. 209 00:11:16,448 --> 00:11:19,103 AND I HAD SOME SUCCESS AT IT, BUT THE PROBLEM WAS 210 00:11:19,103 --> 00:11:21,344 THAT NO MATTER HOW MUCH PROGRESS I WAS MAKING, 211 00:11:21,344 --> 00:11:23,241 IT WASN'T ENOUGH FOR HIM. 212 00:11:23,241 --> 00:11:27,793 SO I STARTED TO FEEL LIKE, "I GIVE UP," YOU KNOW? 213 00:11:27,793 --> 00:11:31,206 SO I WENT BACK TO EATING A LOT, AND I WAS GETTING BIGGER. 214 00:11:31,206 --> 00:11:33,758 AT 24, MY EATING WAS OUT OF CONTROL. 215 00:11:36,137 --> 00:11:37,413 AND I GOT TO A PLACE THEN 216 00:11:37,413 --> 00:11:39,931 WHERE I WAS STARTING TO LOSE MY MOBILITY, 217 00:11:39,931 --> 00:11:42,275 AND THAT WASN'T THE LIFE I WANTED FOR MYSELF. 218 00:11:42,275 --> 00:11:43,965 I WANTED A NORMAL LIFE. 219 00:11:46,655 --> 00:11:49,793 AT 25, I STARTED TO GET MY LIFE TOGETHER, 220 00:11:49,793 --> 00:11:51,310 AND I STARTED TAKING CARE OF ANIYA 221 00:11:51,310 --> 00:11:53,379 SO MY MOM WOULDN'T HAVE TO DO IT NO MORE. 222 00:11:55,724 --> 00:11:58,620 BUT I CAN'T DO MUCH BECAUSE OF MY SIZE. 223 00:11:58,620 --> 00:12:01,827 I'M DISABLED, AND I'M, YOU KNOW, 224 00:12:01,827 --> 00:12:03,827 JUST GETTING MORE AND MORE STRESSED. 225 00:12:03,827 --> 00:12:06,586 AND I ALWAYS GO BACK TO FOOD BECAUSE OF THAT. 226 00:12:09,551 --> 00:12:12,413 SO ANY WEIGHT LOSS I HAD DIDN'T LAST. 227 00:12:12,413 --> 00:12:15,758 AND THAT CYCLE CARRIED ON FOR THE NEXT 5 OR 6 YEARS 228 00:12:15,758 --> 00:12:17,103 UNTIL IT GOT THE POINT 229 00:12:17,103 --> 00:12:19,413 WHERE I COULDN'T DO IT ON MY OWN ANYMORE, 230 00:12:19,413 --> 00:12:23,137 SO I HAD TO MOVE IN WITH MY MOM AT 31. 231 00:12:23,137 --> 00:12:25,241 AND THAT WAS EMBARRASSING AND HARD FOR ME, 232 00:12:25,241 --> 00:12:26,620 BUT I HAD NO CHOICE. 233 00:12:26,620 --> 00:12:28,724 BUT HAVING TO DO THAT MADE ME WANT TO DO 234 00:12:28,724 --> 00:12:31,241 WHATEVER I HAD TO GET BETTER. 235 00:12:31,241 --> 00:12:33,000 SO I DECIDED TO GET WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY, 236 00:12:33,000 --> 00:12:35,724 AND I WAS TRYING TO FIND SOMEONE TO HELP ME WITH THAT. 237 00:12:35,724 --> 00:12:39,241 BUT I STARTED SEEING SOMEONE I HAD KNOWN FOR A WHILE, 238 00:12:39,241 --> 00:12:40,827 AND IT WAS GOOD WITH US. 239 00:12:40,827 --> 00:12:43,103 AND THAT'S WHEN I GOT PREGNANT WITH AMIYAH. 240 00:12:43,103 --> 00:12:44,862 AND THEN THINGS GOT EVEN WORSE FOR ME, 241 00:12:44,862 --> 00:12:49,793 BECAUSE THE MINUTE I GET PREGNANT, THAT PERSON LEAVES. 242 00:12:49,793 --> 00:12:52,482 AND NOT ONLY AM I PREGNANT, 243 00:12:52,482 --> 00:12:57,068 I GOT TO DO ALL THIS ALONE. 244 00:12:57,068 --> 00:13:00,482 MY MOM WAS HAVING TO TAKE CARE OF ME AND PROVIDE FOR ME 245 00:13:00,482 --> 00:13:03,241 LIKE I WAS YOUNG AGAIN, AND MY SISTER, TIFFANIE, 246 00:13:03,241 --> 00:13:05,931 STARTED HAVING TO COME OVER TO HELP ME, TOO, 247 00:13:05,931 --> 00:13:09,344 SINCE SHE LIVED NEXT DOOR, AND MY MOM COULDN'T DO IT ALL. 248 00:13:09,344 --> 00:13:12,310 AND NOW I'M 32 WITH TWO KIDS, AND I WANT A DIFFERENT LIFE 249 00:13:12,310 --> 00:13:14,931 WHERE I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AND MY KIDS, 250 00:13:14,931 --> 00:13:18,000 BUT MY SIZE AND MY WEIGHT HAS STOLEN THAT ALL FROM ME. 251 00:13:18,000 --> 00:13:20,344 SO I HAVE TO CHANGE THAT. 252 00:13:26,379 --> 00:13:31,137 NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO LIVE WITH ALL THE PAIN THAT I LIVE WITH. 253 00:13:31,137 --> 00:13:34,172 IT'S CONSTANT, AND IT NEVER GOES AWAY. 254 00:13:34,172 --> 00:13:37,137 IT MAKES ME WANT TO SIT ALL DAY AND NOT MOVE. 255 00:13:37,137 --> 00:13:38,689 I FEEL LIKE I'M MISSING OUT, 256 00:13:38,689 --> 00:13:42,275 BECAUSE I DEFINITELY WANT TO BE ABLE TO MOVE AROUND A LOT BETTER 257 00:13:42,275 --> 00:13:44,620 AND DO THINGS WITH MY FAMILY AND KIDS, YOU KNOW? 258 00:13:44,620 --> 00:13:47,344 BUT WITH AMIYAH, I'M NOT ABLE TO PICK UP HER 259 00:13:47,344 --> 00:13:48,793 AND WALK WITH HER 260 00:13:48,793 --> 00:13:53,137 WITH MY KNEES AND MY BACK GIVING ME AS MUCH TROUBLE AS IT DOES. 261 00:13:53,137 --> 00:13:54,413 SO I NEED TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT 262 00:13:54,413 --> 00:13:57,241 BECAUSE MY CHILDREN NEED THEIR MOM, PERIOD. 263 00:13:59,655 --> 00:14:01,275 HEY, MA. I'M HOME FROM SCHOOL. 264 00:14:01,275 --> 00:14:03,137 HEY, ANIYA. HOW WAS SCHOOL? 265 00:14:03,137 --> 00:14:04,172 GOOD. 266 00:14:08,103 --> 00:14:09,206 HEY, ASH. 267 00:14:09,206 --> 00:14:10,724 HEY. WHAT'S UP? 268 00:14:10,724 --> 00:14:13,000 YOU HUNGRY? 269 00:14:13,000 --> 00:14:14,793 NOW, YOU KNOW I'M HUNGRY. 270 00:14:14,793 --> 00:14:17,000 MY LEGS HURT. 271 00:14:17,000 --> 00:14:18,551 YOU GON' FEEL BETTER. 272 00:14:18,551 --> 00:14:21,034 ALRIGHT.COME ON, NOW. YOU GO YOUR MAMA. 273 00:14:26,344 --> 00:14:27,724 NEED YOU TO STEP BACK. 274 00:14:27,724 --> 00:14:28,793 YES, MA'AM.AND PULL. 275 00:14:28,793 --> 00:14:30,689 JUST GIVE ME A MINUTE, PLEASE. 276 00:14:34,689 --> 00:14:36,896 ALRIGHT, ANIYA. 277 00:14:36,896 --> 00:14:38,931 ALRIGHT. GO.1, 2, 3. 278 00:14:38,931 --> 00:14:40,413 NO, YOU GOT TO PULL MORE THAN THAT. 279 00:14:40,413 --> 00:14:42,448 OKAY. READY? 280 00:14:42,448 --> 00:14:44,241 YEAH. 1, 2, 3. 281 00:14:44,241 --> 00:14:46,551 THANK YOU. OH. 282 00:14:46,551 --> 00:14:47,620 HOLD ON. GIVE ME A MINUTE. 283 00:14:47,620 --> 00:14:50,275 MM-HMM. 284 00:14:50,275 --> 00:14:52,000 I NEED THE WALKER. 285 00:14:55,344 --> 00:14:57,034 I'M COMING. OH. 286 00:14:59,620 --> 00:15:01,241 ALRIGHT. 287 00:15:01,241 --> 00:15:04,344 I'M VERY DESPERATE FOR A CHANGE. 288 00:15:04,344 --> 00:15:07,344 MY CHILDREN NEED IT. MY FAMILY NEED IT 289 00:15:07,344 --> 00:15:09,931 SO I'M NOT LIVING THIS LIFE WHERE I'M TRAPPED. 290 00:15:09,931 --> 00:15:11,862 I DEFINITELY FEEL TRAPPED. 291 00:15:11,862 --> 00:15:14,379 I DEFINITELY LIKE A PRISONER IN MY OWN BODY. 292 00:15:23,448 --> 00:15:24,551 ARE YOU OKAY? 293 00:15:24,551 --> 00:15:27,241 I'M TRYING TO GET IN THE BED. 294 00:15:36,137 --> 00:15:38,275 OW. 295 00:15:40,965 --> 00:15:43,413 OHH. 296 00:15:43,413 --> 00:15:45,241 YOU CALL YOUR NANA? 297 00:15:45,241 --> 00:15:47,034 YOU TELLING ON ME? 298 00:15:49,965 --> 00:15:51,517 HELLO. HOW YOU DOING, TIFF? 299 00:15:51,517 --> 00:15:53,482 HEY, DADDY. 300 00:15:53,482 --> 00:15:54,689 -HEY, "T." -HEY, ASHLEY. 301 00:15:54,689 --> 00:15:56,000 -HEY, PA. -HEY, ASH. 302 00:15:56,000 --> 00:15:58,034 -HEY, MOM. -HEY, MA. 303 00:15:58,034 --> 00:15:59,793 -ANIYA. -HEY. 304 00:15:59,793 --> 00:16:01,103 HEY, BABE. YOU FEELING BETTER? 305 00:16:01,103 --> 00:16:02,689 OH, MY HEAD HURT. 306 00:16:06,517 --> 00:16:08,103 GOOD. 307 00:16:08,103 --> 00:16:11,448 HEY, LITTLE BABY GIRL. 308 00:16:11,448 --> 00:16:14,068 OH. THANK YOU. 309 00:16:14,068 --> 00:16:17,862 Ashley: FOOD IS STILL MY SAFE PLACE AND WHAT I FEEL PROTECTS ME 310 00:16:17,862 --> 00:16:21,793 FROM THE PAIN OF SO MANY THINGS IN MY LIFE, 311 00:16:21,793 --> 00:16:24,068 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GIVE THAT UP. 312 00:16:24,068 --> 00:16:26,965 AND I FEEL THAT IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING DRASTIC 313 00:16:26,965 --> 00:16:28,896 TO CHANGE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, 314 00:16:28,896 --> 00:16:31,344 IT'S GOING TO BE TOO LATE FOR ME SOON, 315 00:16:31,344 --> 00:16:32,586 AND I WON'T MAKE IT, 316 00:16:32,586 --> 00:16:36,241 BECAUSE MY BODY ALREADY GIVES ME SO MANY SIGNS 317 00:16:36,241 --> 00:16:40,896 THAT IT CAN'T GO THROUGH THIS KIND OF TRAUMA ANYMORE. 318 00:16:40,896 --> 00:16:42,724 NOT JUST THE PAIN, 319 00:16:42,724 --> 00:16:46,344 BUT WITH HOW HARD IT IS JUST TO BREATHE AT TIMES. 320 00:16:46,344 --> 00:16:50,137 I KNOW I'M GETTING TO A POINT WHERE MY LIFE IS GOING TO END 321 00:16:50,137 --> 00:16:52,068 UNLESS I FIND A WAY FOR ME TO CHANGE IT 322 00:16:52,068 --> 00:16:54,000 BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME. 323 00:17:15,413 --> 00:17:18,241 TODAY, I'M GOING TO TRY TO GET HELP FOR MY WEIGHT 324 00:17:18,241 --> 00:17:21,034 BY GOING TO HOUSTON AND SEEING DR. NOW. 325 00:17:23,482 --> 00:17:25,551 HIS CLINIC IS A FEW HOURS AWAY, 326 00:17:25,551 --> 00:17:29,620 SO I'M NERVOUS ABOUT MAKING THAT TRIP. 327 00:17:29,620 --> 00:17:32,551 MY MOM AND MY SISTER CAN'T TAKE ME SINCE THEY HAVE TO WORK, 328 00:17:32,551 --> 00:17:34,344 SO ONE OF MY FRIENDS, FAITH, 329 00:17:34,344 --> 00:17:36,241 THAT I'VE KNOWN SINCE I WAS YOUNG, 330 00:17:36,241 --> 00:17:39,172 IS COMING TO GET ME AND DRIVE ME THERE. 331 00:17:39,172 --> 00:17:41,655 AND MY DAUGHTER ANIYA'S GOING TO COME TO HELP SUPPORT ME 332 00:17:41,655 --> 00:17:45,172 EMOTIONALLY WITH HOW NERVOUS I AM, 333 00:17:45,172 --> 00:17:46,689 BECAUSE IT'S BEEN A COUPLE OF YEARS 334 00:17:46,689 --> 00:17:49,068 SINCE I PUSHED MYSELF TO GO OUT THE HOUSE. 335 00:17:49,068 --> 00:17:52,482 AND MY MOBILITY IS AT ITS WORST NOW, 336 00:17:52,482 --> 00:17:55,206 BUT I KNOW IT'S TIME. I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING AND TRY, 337 00:17:55,206 --> 00:17:59,758 BECAUSE MY BODY IS TELLING ME IN SO MANY WAYS 338 00:17:59,758 --> 00:18:01,551 THAT I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO GO ON 339 00:18:01,551 --> 00:18:04,172 LIKE THIS MUCH LONGER, 340 00:18:04,172 --> 00:18:07,655 AND THE PAIN IN ME FOR MY WEIGHT IS JUST CONSTANT NOW 341 00:18:07,655 --> 00:18:10,275 TO WHERE I JUST REALLY CAN'T TAKE IT, 342 00:18:10,275 --> 00:18:12,275 SO I HAVE TO TRY AND DO THIS. 343 00:18:21,965 --> 00:18:25,758 EVERYTHING ELSE HAS FAILED, SO DR. NOW IS MY LAST HOPE. 344 00:18:28,137 --> 00:18:31,862 WHATEVER HELP I CAN GET, I DEFINITELY NEED IT, 345 00:18:31,862 --> 00:18:34,068 AND I DEFINITELY KNOW I NEED DR. NOW. 346 00:18:34,068 --> 00:18:36,034 AND THEN MY LIFE AND EVERYTHING I WANT IN IT 347 00:18:36,034 --> 00:18:39,172 DEPENDS ON ME GETTING TO HIM AND GETTING HIS HELP. 348 00:19:07,379 --> 00:19:10,620 OH. AH. 349 00:19:10,620 --> 00:19:13,517 BRIGHT. OW. 350 00:19:18,965 --> 00:19:23,344 I'M ALREADY STRUGGLING, SO I KNOW THIS ISN'T GOOD. 351 00:19:23,344 --> 00:19:25,689 BUT I HAVE TO DO THIS. 352 00:19:25,689 --> 00:19:28,310 I CAN'T STOP NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS FOR ME. 353 00:19:45,413 --> 00:19:47,068 THANK YOU. 354 00:19:51,344 --> 00:19:53,137 ALRIGHT. 355 00:19:55,586 --> 00:19:57,482 OKAY. 356 00:20:06,000 --> 00:20:08,379 I'M IN EXCRUCIATING PAIN. 357 00:20:08,379 --> 00:20:12,344 MY BACK IS HURTING, AND MY FEET ARE HURTING REALLY BAD. 358 00:20:12,344 --> 00:20:16,034 NOT SURE HOW I'LL BE ABLE TO WALK. 359 00:20:16,034 --> 00:20:19,758 AND WE ONLY STOPPED A FEW TIMES FOR FOOD AND A BATHROOM, 360 00:20:19,758 --> 00:20:24,206 SO I'VE BEEN CRUSHED UP IN THIS CAR FOR A WHILE NOW, 361 00:20:24,206 --> 00:20:28,206 AND I'M IN SO MUCH PAIN FROM THIS. 362 00:20:28,206 --> 00:20:31,275 MY BODY HASN'T FELT BAD LIKE THIS FOR A WHILE, 363 00:20:31,275 --> 00:20:32,655 BECAUSE IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME 364 00:20:32,655 --> 00:20:35,896 SINCE I PUT IT THROUGH THIS MUCH TRAUMA. 365 00:20:35,896 --> 00:20:40,827 AND I CAN'T GET ANYTHING TO EAT FOR NOW TO HELP ME WITH IT. 366 00:20:40,827 --> 00:20:44,793 AND I DON'T KNOW WHEN I'LL BE ABLE TO NEXT. 367 00:20:44,793 --> 00:20:46,413 ASHLEY? 368 00:20:49,068 --> 00:20:51,896 IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I KNEW MY WEIGHT, AND I'M JUST HOPING 369 00:20:51,896 --> 00:20:55,689 THAT IT'S NOT TOO MUCH HIGHER THAN IT WAS BEFORE 370 00:20:55,689 --> 00:20:58,068 AND THAT I'M AT LEAST AROUND 600. 371 00:21:15,310 --> 00:21:17,931 THAT'S A BIT HIGHER THAN EXPECTED, 372 00:21:17,931 --> 00:21:20,965 SO I KNOW I'M GETTING EVEN MORE OUT OF CONTROL. 373 00:21:20,965 --> 00:21:24,103 -I'M COMING. -OKAY. 374 00:21:24,103 --> 00:21:26,965 AND WITHOUT THE HELP I NEED TO TURN IT BACK, 375 00:21:26,965 --> 00:21:30,586 I'M SCARED WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME, 376 00:21:30,586 --> 00:21:32,862 BECAUSE I'M ALREADY AT MY PHYSICAL LIMIT, 377 00:21:32,862 --> 00:21:36,275 AND I KNOW I CAN'T TAKE MUCH MORE, 378 00:21:36,275 --> 00:21:40,103 SO I NEED THIS RIGHT NOW TO GO HOW I NEED SO I CAN STOP THAT. 379 00:21:49,275 --> 00:21:50,827 -HI. -HELLO. 380 00:21:50,827 --> 00:21:53,137 -HOW YOU ALL DOING? -ALRIGHT. YOU? 381 00:21:53,137 --> 00:21:54,275 GOOD. 382 00:21:54,275 --> 00:21:55,827 WHERE YOU ALL COMING FROM? 383 00:21:55,827 --> 00:21:57,620 LAFAYETTE, LOUISIANA. 384 00:21:57,620 --> 00:22:01,551 LOUISIANA, OKAY. SO THAT'S NOT TOO BAD OF A DRIVE. 385 00:22:01,551 --> 00:22:04,275 SO I ASSUME YOU WANT TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT, HUH? 386 00:22:04,275 --> 00:22:05,379 YES. 387 00:22:05,379 --> 00:22:07,655 SO, YOU'RE 637 POUNDS, HUH? 388 00:22:07,655 --> 00:22:09,172 YES. 389 00:22:09,172 --> 00:22:13,344 ALRIGHT. SO I SEE YOU WALKING WITH A WALKER, HUH? 390 00:22:13,344 --> 00:22:14,586 MM-HMM. 391 00:22:14,586 --> 00:22:19,586 ALRIGHT. SO, YOU ARE 32, 392 00:22:19,586 --> 00:22:21,344 AND AT THIS POINT, I'M GUESSING 393 00:22:21,344 --> 00:22:23,344 YOU HAVE BEEN OVERWEIGHT MOST OF YOUR LIFE 394 00:22:23,344 --> 00:22:26,448 IF YOU'RE TAKING IT TO WHERE YOU NEED A WALKER NOW. 395 00:22:26,448 --> 00:22:29,896 YEAH, I'VE BEEN EXTREMELY OVERWEIGHT MOST OF MY LIFE. 396 00:22:29,896 --> 00:22:32,413 OKAY. SO WHAT GOT YOU TO THIS POINT HERE? 397 00:22:32,413 --> 00:22:35,206 WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOUR EATING HABIT? 398 00:22:35,206 --> 00:22:38,172 OH, IT'S OUT OF CONTROL. 399 00:22:38,172 --> 00:22:40,758 IN WHAT WAY? 400 00:22:40,758 --> 00:22:42,241 LIKE, THERE ARE TIMES 401 00:22:42,241 --> 00:22:45,000 WHERE I JUST DON'T GET UP TO FIX NOTHING, 402 00:22:45,000 --> 00:22:47,034 SO I MIGHT SNACK, OR IF I DON'T SNACK, 403 00:22:47,034 --> 00:22:50,137 THEN I MIGHT BINGE EAT AT TIMES. 404 00:22:50,137 --> 00:22:54,793 SO, WHO ELSE IS IN THE HOUSEHOLD BESIDE YOU? 405 00:22:54,793 --> 00:22:57,689 IT DEPENDS, BUT MOSTLY MY MOM AND MY KIDS. 406 00:22:57,689 --> 00:23:01,827 I HAVE MY OLDEST DAUGHTER, ANIYA, AND THE BABY. 407 00:23:01,827 --> 00:23:03,620 AND HOW OLD IS BABY? 408 00:23:03,620 --> 00:23:07,827 SHE IS JUST STARTING HER 10th MONTH. 409 00:23:07,827 --> 00:23:09,275 SO THAT'S A LOT OF WORK 410 00:23:09,275 --> 00:23:11,827 TO TAKE CARE OF A 10-MONTH-OLD BABY, HUH? 411 00:23:11,827 --> 00:23:13,137 YEAH. MM-HMM. 412 00:23:13,137 --> 00:23:15,379 SO YOU NEED A LITTLE HELP.YEAH. 413 00:23:15,379 --> 00:23:18,862 SO YOUR FAMILY HELPS YOU, BUT DO THEY ALSO ENABLE YOU? 414 00:23:18,862 --> 00:23:20,034 NO. 415 00:23:20,034 --> 00:23:21,931 NO ONE BRINGS YOU FOOD? 416 00:23:21,931 --> 00:23:23,965 NOT REALLY. OKAY. 417 00:23:23,965 --> 00:23:26,172 WELL, IF YOU'RE THE ONE CHOOSING TO OVEREAT, 418 00:23:26,172 --> 00:23:28,172 THEN TELL ME WHY DO YOU KEEP OVEREATING 419 00:23:28,172 --> 00:23:30,068 IF YOU WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT? 420 00:23:32,655 --> 00:23:35,827 IT'S LIKE I TRY, 421 00:23:35,827 --> 00:23:39,241 AND IT'S NOT LIKE I GREW UP KNOWING TO EAT HEALTHY 422 00:23:39,241 --> 00:23:41,862 AND KNOWING WHAT THINGS TO DO. 423 00:23:41,862 --> 00:23:43,689 SO, KIND OF, ONCE I GET FRUSTRATED, 424 00:23:43,689 --> 00:23:45,379 JUST, LIKE, I JUST WANT TO BINGE EAT. 425 00:23:45,379 --> 00:23:47,586 SO IT'S JUST FRUSTRATING. 426 00:23:47,586 --> 00:23:51,103 ALRIGHT. SO, ASHLEY, WE'RE DEALING WITH AN ISSUE 427 00:23:51,103 --> 00:23:53,413 THAT YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND, OKAY, 428 00:23:53,413 --> 00:23:55,172 BECAUSE YOU HAVE AN EATING DISORDER 429 00:23:55,172 --> 00:23:57,000 WHERE YOU DON'T WANT TO STOP OVEREATING 430 00:23:57,000 --> 00:24:00,482 AND YOU MAKE EXCUSES WHY YOU AREN'T ABLE TO DO THAT. 431 00:24:00,482 --> 00:24:03,517 SO THIS IS SOMETHING THAT WE WILL NEED TO ADDRESS. 432 00:24:03,517 --> 00:24:05,172 BUT THE FIRST THE PLACE WE WILL START 433 00:24:05,172 --> 00:24:07,965 IS WITH A DIET THAT WILL HELP YOU LOSE SOME WEIGHT. 434 00:24:07,965 --> 00:24:09,413 SO I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU SOME STUFF 435 00:24:09,413 --> 00:24:12,896 THAT I WANT YOU TO READ EVERY NIGHT, OKAY? 436 00:24:12,896 --> 00:24:15,379 SO, THIS DIET IS GOING TO LIMIT YOU 437 00:24:15,379 --> 00:24:19,034 TO ONLY 1,200 CALORIES A DAY, AND IF YOU STICK TO THAT, 438 00:24:19,034 --> 00:24:21,034 THEN YOU WILL LOSE 80 POUNDS A MONTH. 439 00:24:21,034 --> 00:24:25,862 BUT WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO IS LOSE THAT IN TWO MONTHS, OKAY? 440 00:24:25,862 --> 00:24:27,068 OKAY. 441 00:24:27,068 --> 00:24:29,413 SO WITH THIS DIET, YOU WON'T HAVE ANY MORE EXCUSES 442 00:24:29,413 --> 00:24:32,379 THAT YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EAT OR HOW TO EAT HEALTHY. 443 00:24:32,379 --> 00:24:34,655 YOU GOT IT? YEAH. 444 00:24:34,655 --> 00:24:36,482 OKAY, GREAT. 445 00:24:36,482 --> 00:24:38,068 ONCE YOU CORRECT THE EATING HABIT, 446 00:24:38,068 --> 00:24:41,413 THEN WILL BE POTENTIAL FOR WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY, OKAY? 447 00:24:41,413 --> 00:24:42,586 UH-HUH. 448 00:24:42,586 --> 00:24:44,655 AND I'M ALSO GOING TO GIVE YOU SOME EXERCISES 449 00:24:44,655 --> 00:24:47,068 TO START DOING, TOO, OKAY? 450 00:24:47,068 --> 00:24:48,172 YES, SIR. 451 00:24:48,172 --> 00:24:50,241 SO THAT WILL HELP GET YOUR STAMINA UP 452 00:24:50,241 --> 00:24:52,896 SO YOU CAN GET MORE ACTIVE AS YOU LOSE WEIGHT. 453 00:24:52,896 --> 00:24:55,586 JUST START DOING THOSE EXERCISES 454 00:24:55,586 --> 00:24:58,689 AND SEE IF WE CAN BRING YOU STAMINA UP, OKAY? 455 00:24:58,689 --> 00:25:00,413 UH-HUH. 456 00:25:00,413 --> 00:25:02,724 BUT UNTIL THEN, YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO CORRECT 457 00:25:02,724 --> 00:25:04,758 YOUR EATING HABIT, OKAY? 458 00:25:04,758 --> 00:25:07,000 AND THAT'S GOING TO BE VERY IMPORTANT FOR YOU, 459 00:25:07,000 --> 00:25:10,758 BECAUSE WE NEED TO GET ALMOST 440 POUNDS OFF OF YOUR BODY 460 00:25:10,758 --> 00:25:13,068 BEFORE YOUR CONDITION GETS EVEN WORSE. 461 00:25:13,068 --> 00:25:15,551 BECAUSE THE GOAL WEIGHT FOR YOU WITH YOUR HEIGHT 462 00:25:15,551 --> 00:25:18,034 WILL BE PROBABLY AROUND 200. 463 00:25:18,034 --> 00:25:21,068 BUT AT THIS POINT, EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE UP TO YOU. 464 00:25:21,068 --> 00:25:24,241 SO WHAT HAPPENS FROM HERE AND WHETHER WE MOVE AHEAD WITH YOU 465 00:25:24,241 --> 00:25:27,827 WILL ALL DEPEND ON THE CHOICES YOU MAKE FROM HERE, OKAY? 466 00:25:27,827 --> 00:25:30,000 OKAY. 467 00:25:30,000 --> 00:25:32,689 ALRIGHT. ANY OTHER QUESTIONS? 468 00:25:32,689 --> 00:25:34,000 MNH-MNH. 469 00:25:34,000 --> 00:25:36,724 ALRIGHT. SO, LET ME BRING YOU THIS STUFF, 470 00:25:36,724 --> 00:25:40,448 AND THEN WE HOPE TO SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS. 471 00:25:40,448 --> 00:25:43,620 AND IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTION, GIVE US A CALL, OKAY? 472 00:25:43,620 --> 00:25:44,689 OKAY. 473 00:25:44,689 --> 00:25:46,241 LET ME BRING THIS STUFF FOR YOU, OKAY? 474 00:25:46,241 --> 00:25:48,793 OKAY. 475 00:25:48,793 --> 00:25:50,586 Faith: THANK YOU. 476 00:25:54,689 --> 00:25:56,931 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S CLEAR THAT ASHLEY HAS A HISTORY 477 00:25:56,931 --> 00:26:00,344 OF MAKING EXCUSES TO JUSTIFY HER OVEREATING, 478 00:26:00,344 --> 00:26:03,241 NOT JUST TO OTHERS, BUT TO HERSELF, 479 00:26:03,241 --> 00:26:05,827 BECAUSE SHE SEEMS TO HAVE CONVINCED HERSELF 480 00:26:05,827 --> 00:26:09,862 THAT OVEREATING IS AN ACCEPTABLE COPING MECHANISM. 481 00:26:09,862 --> 00:26:12,793 BUT I ALSO DON'T THINK SHE'S BEING HONEST WITH ME 482 00:26:12,793 --> 00:26:15,034 ABOUT NOT HAVING ANY ENABLERS. 483 00:26:15,034 --> 00:26:18,413 IF SHE IS AT THE POINT THAT SHE NEEDS THE WALKER TO GET AROUND, 484 00:26:18,413 --> 00:26:20,689 SOMEONE HAS TO BE HELPING FEED HER 485 00:26:20,689 --> 00:26:23,379 AND BRINGING HER WHAT SHE WANTS TO EAT. 486 00:26:23,379 --> 00:26:26,068 SO THAT IS AN ELEMENT THAT WE NEED TO ADDRESS 487 00:26:26,068 --> 00:26:27,689 IN THE LONG-TERM, AS WELL, 488 00:26:27,689 --> 00:26:31,310 IF SHE'S GOING TO HAVE ANY CHANCE AT BEING SUCCESSFUL. 489 00:26:31,310 --> 00:26:34,103 BUT THE FIRST THING IS, ASHLEY NEEDS TO SHOW ME 490 00:26:34,103 --> 00:26:37,724 SHE'S WILLING TO WORK AT MAKING THE IMPORTANT CHANGES SHE NEEDS 491 00:26:37,724 --> 00:26:40,482 BY FOLLOWING THE DIET PLAN I HAVE GIVEN HER 492 00:26:40,482 --> 00:26:42,862 AND GETTING DOWN TO HER WEIGHT LOSS GOAL 493 00:26:42,862 --> 00:26:45,413 OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS. 494 00:26:45,413 --> 00:26:47,137 ALRIGHT. NICE TO MEET YOU, ASHLEY. 495 00:26:47,137 --> 00:26:48,965 NICE TO MEET YOU.ALRIGHT. NICE TO SEE YOU. 496 00:26:48,965 --> 00:26:50,965 NICE TO MEET YOU, DR. NOW. 497 00:26:50,965 --> 00:26:52,172 BYE. 498 00:26:52,172 --> 00:26:53,448 -OKAY. THANK YOU. -ALRIGHT. 499 00:26:53,448 --> 00:26:54,965 THANK YOU. 500 00:27:01,620 --> 00:27:05,000 SOME OF THE THINGS DR. NOW SAID WAS HARSH, 501 00:27:05,000 --> 00:27:07,206 BUT I UNDERSTAND WHAT HE'S SAYING. 502 00:27:07,206 --> 00:27:11,344 AND I WANT TO LOSE THE WEIGHT AND CHANGE THINGS LIKE HE SAID. 503 00:27:11,344 --> 00:27:15,413 AND IF THIS DIET AND EXERCISING IS THE PATHWAY TO SURGERY 504 00:27:15,413 --> 00:27:19,034 SO I CAN DO THAT, THEN I'M GOING TO TAKE THIS ALL TO HEART 505 00:27:19,034 --> 00:27:22,793 AND DO MY HARDEST TO PROGRESS LIKE HE WANTS. 506 00:27:22,793 --> 00:27:24,896 I DO HAVE A LOT OF FEAR ABOUT WHAT IT'S GOING TO TAKE 507 00:27:24,896 --> 00:27:27,206 FOR ME TO DO THAT, 508 00:27:27,206 --> 00:27:31,517 BUT I'M GOING TO GIVE IT MY BEST BECAUSE I WANT A NEW LIFE. 509 00:27:31,517 --> 00:27:34,551 SO WHATEVER IT TAKES FOR ME, I'M GOING TO DO IT, 510 00:27:34,551 --> 00:27:36,241 BECAUSE I HAVE TO. 511 00:27:56,620 --> 00:27:58,793 Ashley: IT'S BEEN ONE MONTH SINCE I WENT TO HOUSTON 512 00:27:58,793 --> 00:28:01,034 AND HAD MY APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW. 513 00:28:01,034 --> 00:28:04,310 AND SINCE THEN I'VE BEEN WORKING ON AS MANY CHANGES WITH MY DIET 514 00:28:04,310 --> 00:28:08,620 AS I CAN DO, BUT IT HASN'T BEEN EASY. 515 00:28:08,620 --> 00:28:13,482 THE MOST CHALLENGING THING ABOUT STICKING TO DR. NOW DIET 516 00:28:13,482 --> 00:28:15,655 IS MY FAMILY IS STILL MY FAMILY. 517 00:28:15,655 --> 00:28:17,551 THEY'RE STILL GOING TO EAT THE WAY THEY EAT. 518 00:28:17,551 --> 00:28:20,103 SO MY BIG TEMPTATION IS DINNER, 519 00:28:20,103 --> 00:28:23,517 BECAUSE THAT'S WHEN MY MOM COOKS FOR THE WHOLE FAMILY, 520 00:28:23,517 --> 00:28:26,379 AND THE SMELLS FILL UP THE WHOLE SPACE. 521 00:28:26,379 --> 00:28:29,758 AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO GIVE IN AND EAT WHAT THEY'RE HAVING, 522 00:28:29,758 --> 00:28:31,482 BUT I'VE BEEN RESISTING. 523 00:28:31,482 --> 00:28:32,827 BUT HOW I'VE BEEN RESISTING 524 00:28:32,827 --> 00:28:34,724 IS THAT I CALL MY FRIEND TOMORROW 525 00:28:34,724 --> 00:28:36,551 THAT I'VE KNOWN SINCE I WAS YOUNG, 526 00:28:36,551 --> 00:28:39,275 AND SHE BRINGS ME OVER A HEALTHY MEAL TO EAT 527 00:28:39,275 --> 00:28:42,517 INSTEAD OF WHAT MY MOM COOKS. 528 00:28:42,517 --> 00:28:44,344 HEY, GIRLFRIEND. 529 00:28:44,344 --> 00:28:46,724 HI! 530 00:28:47,793 --> 00:28:50,931 OKAY. I GOT YOU SOME SHRIMP, CRAB MEAT, 531 00:28:50,931 --> 00:28:52,517 AVOCADO, AND CREAM CHEESE. 532 00:28:52,517 --> 00:28:54,103 Ashley: OKAY. 533 00:28:58,551 --> 00:29:00,034 I REALLY AM PUSHING MY HARDEST, 534 00:29:00,034 --> 00:29:03,000 AND I FEEL LIKE I AM DOING GOOD WITH MY PROGRESS, 535 00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:06,172 ESPECIALLY WITH MY DIET. WITH MY MOM IN THE KITCHEN, 536 00:29:06,172 --> 00:29:08,379 I CAN'T EVEN GET CLOSE TO WHAT SHE'S MAKING, 537 00:29:08,379 --> 00:29:11,413 OR I'M GOING TO LOSE MY WILL AND GIVE IN. 538 00:29:11,413 --> 00:29:13,103 SO I JUST KEEP MY DISTANCE, 539 00:29:13,103 --> 00:29:16,620 AND I WAIT FOR MY HEALTHY OPTIONS TO COME, AND I EAT THAT. 540 00:29:19,206 --> 00:29:21,000 YOU WANT ME TO CHECK ON THE KIDS? 541 00:29:21,000 --> 00:29:22,206 YEAH, YOU CAN. 542 00:29:27,068 --> 00:29:29,000 EXCUSE ME. 543 00:29:42,448 --> 00:29:43,517 THANK YOU, MAMA. 544 00:29:43,517 --> 00:29:45,137 I FIGURED YOU'D PUT YOUR RANCH YOURSELF. 545 00:29:45,137 --> 00:29:48,206 THANK YOU.YOU'RE WELCOME. 546 00:29:48,206 --> 00:29:51,034 SO MY HOPE IS I MAKE IT TO ALL MY GOALS FOR DR. NOW, 547 00:29:51,034 --> 00:29:53,931 BECAUSE IT'S VERY IMPORTANT FOR ME TO GET THIS SURGERY 548 00:29:53,931 --> 00:29:56,551 BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE IT'S BIGGER THAN FOOD. 549 00:29:56,551 --> 00:29:59,551 I FEEL LIKE THIS IS MY LIFE. 550 00:29:59,551 --> 00:30:02,827 THIS IS MY CHILDREN'S FUTURE. 551 00:30:02,827 --> 00:30:06,620 AND IT'S ONLY GOING TO HAPPEN IF I DO THIS LIKE I SHOULD, 552 00:30:06,620 --> 00:30:08,862 AND SO I'M PUSHING HARD TO BE WHERE I NEED 553 00:30:08,862 --> 00:30:11,379 COME TIME FOR ME TO BE BACK AT THE SCALE 554 00:30:11,379 --> 00:30:13,586 AND IN FRONT OF DR. NOW SOON. 555 00:30:25,827 --> 00:30:28,034 I'M BACK IN HOUSTON WITH MY SISTER, TIFFANIE, 556 00:30:28,034 --> 00:30:30,482 FOR MY NEXT DR. NOW APPOINTMENT. 557 00:30:30,482 --> 00:30:32,172 FAITH COULDN'T BRING ME THIS TIME, 558 00:30:32,172 --> 00:30:35,068 SO MY SISTER WAS ABLE TO TAKE OFF WORK TO BRING ME BACK 559 00:30:35,068 --> 00:30:37,000 SO I WOULDN'T MISS IT. 560 00:30:37,000 --> 00:30:38,482 I'M STILL REALLY SORE AND IN PAIN 561 00:30:38,482 --> 00:30:42,620 FROM BEING BACK CRUSHED IN A CAR FOR 4 HOURS AGAIN, 562 00:30:42,620 --> 00:30:45,724 BUT IT FEELS LIKE I COULD HANDLE A LITTLE BIT THIS TIME AROUND. 563 00:30:51,068 --> 00:30:54,586 AND I DIDN'T EAT THE FAST FOOD THE WHOLE TIME LIKE I WANTED. 564 00:31:00,448 --> 00:31:02,724 SO I'M PROUD OF THAT, 'CAUSE THAT ISN'T EASY 565 00:31:02,724 --> 00:31:05,620 WITH ALL THE TEMPTATION ON THE ROAD. 566 00:31:05,620 --> 00:31:06,965 SO WITH ALL THAT, I WOULD SAY 567 00:31:06,965 --> 00:31:09,827 I'M FEELING GOOD ABOUT MY CHANCES FOR MY GOAL TODAY. 568 00:31:15,103 --> 00:31:18,034 ASHLEY? 569 00:31:18,034 --> 00:31:22,413 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, I WAS UP TO 637, 570 00:31:22,413 --> 00:31:27,172 AND THE GOAL I HAD TO LOSE WAS 80 POUNDS OVER TWO MONTHS, 571 00:31:27,172 --> 00:31:31,344 SO THAT MEANS I HAVE TO HAVE GONE DOWN TO 557 POUNDS 572 00:31:31,344 --> 00:31:33,310 TO BE WHERE I NEED. 573 00:31:45,586 --> 00:31:48,827 I KNOW IT'S MORE THAN THAT THAT I LOST. 574 00:31:52,517 --> 00:31:56,103 THAT'S A BIT SURPRISING TO ME, 'CAUSE I KNOW WHAT I DID 575 00:31:56,103 --> 00:32:00,379 AND HOW HARD I PUSHED MYSELF TO MAKE THE PROGRESS I NEEDED. 576 00:32:00,379 --> 00:32:03,482 I KNOW THERE WERE DAYS WHERE I DIDN'T DO AS WELL, 577 00:32:03,482 --> 00:32:05,620 BUT THAT'S JUST BECAUSE THE STRESS OF MY LIFE 578 00:32:05,620 --> 00:32:08,000 AND EATING SOMETHING TO GET BY. 579 00:32:08,000 --> 00:32:09,344 BUT IT WAS HARDLY EVER, 580 00:32:09,344 --> 00:32:12,275 SO I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY MY PROGRESS WAS SO LITTLE. 581 00:32:14,448 --> 00:32:17,344 AND MY ASSUMPTION IS THAT DR. NOW ISN'T GOING TO THINK 582 00:32:17,344 --> 00:32:21,034 I WAS WORKING LIKE I WAS. SO I'M UPSET AT THIS, 583 00:32:21,034 --> 00:32:23,413 AND I'M WORRIED ABOUT WHAT THAT MEANS NOW FOR ME 584 00:32:23,413 --> 00:32:26,034 AND THE PROGRAM AND GETTING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 585 00:32:30,172 --> 00:32:31,689 -HELLO. -HI. 586 00:32:31,689 --> 00:32:32,793 HOW Y'ALL DOING? 587 00:32:32,793 --> 00:32:35,758 ALRIGHT. YOU? 588 00:32:35,758 --> 00:32:37,137 ALRIGHT, ASHLEY. 589 00:32:37,137 --> 00:32:40,137 SO, WHAT'S GOING ON IN LOUISIANA? 590 00:32:40,137 --> 00:32:41,758 NOTHING MUCH. 591 00:32:41,758 --> 00:32:44,034 I SEE THAT, BECAUSE IN TWO MONTHS, 592 00:32:44,034 --> 00:32:47,827 YOU BARELY LOST ANY WEIGHT, HUH? 593 00:32:47,827 --> 00:32:49,551 YEAH. 594 00:32:49,551 --> 00:32:51,413 SO, WHAT IS WITH THAT? 595 00:32:51,413 --> 00:32:54,862 I MEAN, HONESTLY, I CAN HONESTLY SAY 596 00:32:54,862 --> 00:32:59,344 THAT I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO FOLLOW THE DIET. 597 00:32:59,344 --> 00:33:01,862 THERE IS A FEW TIMES THAT I'VE MESSED UP. 598 00:33:01,862 --> 00:33:05,517 OKAY. AT YOUR WEIGHT, TO MAINTAIN THE WEIGHT YOU ARE, 599 00:33:05,517 --> 00:33:09,655 YOU NEED TO BE EATING AT LEAST 6,000 TO 7,000 CALORIES A DAY. 600 00:33:09,655 --> 00:33:14,241 SO YOU ARE EATING THREE TIME AS MUCH AS YOU SHOULD 601 00:33:14,241 --> 00:33:16,862 AND PRACTICALLY AT YOUR WEIGHT 602 00:33:16,862 --> 00:33:20,448 EATING THE FOOD THAT BELONG TO NEXT THREE YEARS AHEAD OF TIME. 603 00:33:20,448 --> 00:33:23,275 SO YOU'RE STILL OVEREATING AND DOING WHATEVER YOU WANT 604 00:33:23,275 --> 00:33:26,344 AND JUST GIVING ME EXCUSES NOW. 605 00:33:26,344 --> 00:33:28,413 SO WHAT'S THE POINT OF COMING HERE, 606 00:33:28,413 --> 00:33:31,896 AND YOU GET DIET, GET MEDICINE, AND NOT LOSING WEIGHT? 607 00:33:31,896 --> 00:33:33,862 WHAT, DO YOU WANT MAGIC HAPPEN? 608 00:33:33,862 --> 00:33:37,000 WHAT DO YOU EXPECT TO HAPPEN? 609 00:33:37,000 --> 00:33:39,586 NO, IT'S NOT THAT I EXPECTED MAGIC. 610 00:33:39,586 --> 00:33:43,620 I CAN HONESTLY SAY THAT DIDN'T DO WHAT I NEED. 611 00:33:43,620 --> 00:33:45,310 I OVER-ATE STILL. 612 00:33:45,310 --> 00:33:47,482 WHY? 613 00:33:47,482 --> 00:33:52,241 IT'S HARD. I'M NOT GOING TO SAY THAT -- 614 00:33:52,241 --> 00:33:53,482 WHAT DO YOU MEAN? 615 00:33:53,482 --> 00:33:56,724 EATING RIGHT IS HARD? 616 00:33:56,724 --> 00:33:59,586 YEAH, IT'S JUST STRESSFUL. 617 00:33:59,586 --> 00:34:02,000 WHAT KIND OF STRESS YOU GOT IN YOUR LIFE? 618 00:34:04,517 --> 00:34:06,103 JUST A LOT. 619 00:34:08,344 --> 00:34:11,896 I CAN'T REALLY NECESSARILY MOVE EXACTLY HOW I WANT TO MOVE. 620 00:34:11,896 --> 00:34:16,862 I'M IN A LOT OF PHYSICAL PAIN, AND I KNOW -- 621 00:34:16,862 --> 00:34:18,965 I FEEL LIKE I WOULD DO A LOT BETTER 622 00:34:18,965 --> 00:34:22,344 IF I HAD, LIKE, SOME FORM 623 00:34:22,344 --> 00:34:25,517 OF, LIKE, A PHYSICAL THERAPY, 624 00:34:25,517 --> 00:34:28,827 SO THAT THAT WAY, I COULD MOVE AROUND MORE. 625 00:34:28,827 --> 00:34:34,034 I KNOW THAT -- IT'S NOT THAT I CAN'T DO IT AT TIMES. 626 00:34:34,034 --> 00:34:37,793 IT'S JUST, IT'S HARD TO DO IT WITH MY BABY, 627 00:34:37,793 --> 00:34:39,275 LIKE, MOVING AROUND WITH HER. 628 00:34:39,275 --> 00:34:41,689 ARE YOU IMPLYING THAT YOUR WEIGHT LOSS 629 00:34:41,689 --> 00:34:46,172 IS GOING TO BE BETTER WITH MOVING AROUND? 630 00:34:46,172 --> 00:34:47,793 YES.IF THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE SAYING, 631 00:34:47,793 --> 00:34:49,827 LET ME GIVE YOU BAD NEWS.EXERCISING. 632 00:34:49,827 --> 00:34:52,517 BAD NEWS IS, YOUR WEIGHT LOSS HAS TO DO WITH YOUR EATING, 633 00:34:52,517 --> 00:34:53,724 NOT ACTIVITY. 634 00:34:53,724 --> 00:34:55,137 OKAY. OKAY? 635 00:34:55,137 --> 00:34:56,655 SO DON'T CONFUSE YOURSELF. 636 00:34:56,655 --> 00:34:58,034 OKAY. 637 00:34:58,034 --> 00:35:00,517 SO YOU'RE JUST AVOIDING MY QUESTION, 638 00:35:00,517 --> 00:35:03,241 AND YOU'RE NOT LISTENING TO WHAT I'M SAYING. 639 00:35:03,241 --> 00:35:04,931 SO YOU'RE OVEREATING, 640 00:35:04,931 --> 00:35:09,448 AND YOU KEEP CONFUSING YOURSELF -- 641 00:35:09,448 --> 00:35:11,586 IF YOU HAD PHYSICAL THERAPY AND MOVING AROUND, 642 00:35:11,586 --> 00:35:15,448 MAYBE YOU WOULD NOT BE THAT BIG. 643 00:35:15,448 --> 00:35:17,586 THAT'S NOT REALITY, OKAY? 644 00:35:17,586 --> 00:35:20,000 SO, WHAT IS THE PLAN? 645 00:35:20,000 --> 00:35:23,172 WHAT DO YOU WANT TO SEE HAPPEN? 646 00:35:23,172 --> 00:35:26,758 WHAT IS ON YOUR WISH LIST? 647 00:35:26,758 --> 00:35:28,379 WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO? 648 00:35:31,827 --> 00:35:34,551 I MEAN, UM, I DON'T KNOW. 649 00:35:36,586 --> 00:35:38,551 WELL, YOU NEED TO FIGURE THAT OUT. 650 00:35:38,551 --> 00:35:43,172 NO. THE DIET, YEAH, I CAN DO THAT A LOT MORE SERIOUSLY. 651 00:35:43,172 --> 00:35:44,896 IT'S NOT THAT -- 652 00:35:44,896 --> 00:35:48,586 LIKE I SAID, I WAS DOING KETO, AND THAT -- 653 00:35:48,586 --> 00:35:53,034 IT WAS ALTERED FROM WHAT Y'ALL HAD ORIGINALLY PUT, 654 00:35:53,034 --> 00:35:56,275 AND I CAN GO BACK TO THE DIET THAT YOU HAD TO FOLLOW 655 00:35:56,275 --> 00:35:58,586 AND FOLLOW IT CORRECTLY. 656 00:35:58,586 --> 00:36:01,241 OKAY. YOU SEEM LIKE YOU'RE NOT CATCHING UP 657 00:36:01,241 --> 00:36:04,275 IN ANYTHING WE TELLING YOU. 658 00:36:04,275 --> 00:36:07,448 WHAT WE GAVE YOU, THOSE PAPERS THAT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO READ 659 00:36:07,448 --> 00:36:10,551 EVERY NIGHT THAT YOU DIDN'T READ, 660 00:36:10,551 --> 00:36:15,620 WILL TELL YOU HOW THE HEALTHY EATING HABITS SHOULD BE. 661 00:36:15,620 --> 00:36:20,068 OKAY? AND EATING HEALTHY IS A LIFESTYLE CHANGE 662 00:36:20,068 --> 00:36:23,103 THAT IS GOING TO LAST THE REST OF YOUR LIFE. 663 00:36:23,103 --> 00:36:26,172 THE 1,200-CALORIE LIMIT WILL CHANGE. 664 00:36:26,172 --> 00:36:28,758 BUT WHAT YOU SHOULD AND SHOULDN'T EAT, 665 00:36:28,758 --> 00:36:31,655 THAT NEEDS TO CHANGE FOR REST OF YOUR LIFE NOW 666 00:36:31,655 --> 00:36:33,724 IF YOU WANT TO BE HEALTHY. 667 00:36:33,724 --> 00:36:36,413 SO, YOU STILL HAVE THOSE PAPER? 668 00:36:36,413 --> 00:36:37,758 YES. 669 00:36:37,758 --> 00:36:40,862 YOU PULL THEM OUT. YOU READ THEM EVERY NIGHT, 670 00:36:40,862 --> 00:36:43,620 AND YOU FOLLOW HEALTHY EATING HABIT 671 00:36:43,620 --> 00:36:45,448 WITH 1,200-CALORIE DIET. 672 00:36:45,448 --> 00:36:48,655 AND YOU FIGURE OUT WHAT YOU DID WRONG TODAY 673 00:36:48,655 --> 00:36:51,103 AND DON'T MAKE THOSE MISTAKE TOMORROW. 674 00:36:51,103 --> 00:36:52,827 OKAY. OKAY? 675 00:36:52,827 --> 00:36:54,586 AND UNLESS YOU DO THAT, 676 00:36:54,586 --> 00:36:56,068 YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BE SUCCESSFUL 677 00:36:56,068 --> 00:36:59,724 AND CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOR THE LONG TERM LIKE YOU NEED, 678 00:36:59,724 --> 00:37:02,965 SO THE WAY YOU'RE EATING IS THE WRONG WAY, 679 00:37:02,965 --> 00:37:04,758 AND THE WAY YOU ARE RIGHT NOW, 680 00:37:04,758 --> 00:37:06,793 YOU'RE NOT GOING TO LIVE TOO MUCH LONGER. 681 00:37:06,793 --> 00:37:08,034 OKAY? OKAY. 682 00:37:08,034 --> 00:37:10,655 OKAY, SO YOU WANT TO BE HEALTHY. 683 00:37:10,655 --> 00:37:12,965 YOU WANT TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. 684 00:37:12,965 --> 00:37:16,206 YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO BE THE ONE TO MODERATE YOURSELF 685 00:37:16,206 --> 00:37:19,758 AND THE ONE TO UNDERSTAND WHAT TO DO, WHAT NOT TO DO 686 00:37:19,758 --> 00:37:22,275 AND THE ONE THAT MAKE THE CHANGES. 687 00:37:22,275 --> 00:37:23,448 OKAY? 688 00:37:23,448 --> 00:37:26,068 SO, NOBODY ELSE IS GOING TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT. 689 00:37:26,068 --> 00:37:27,931 WE'RE GOING TO GIVE YOU SOME TOOL. 690 00:37:27,931 --> 00:37:30,172 WE'RE GOING TO GUIDE YOU IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, 691 00:37:30,172 --> 00:37:33,482 BUT ULTIMATELY, THIS IS ALL UP TO YOU. 692 00:37:33,482 --> 00:37:36,793 AND SOMEWHERE DOWN THE ROAD, WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 693 00:37:36,793 --> 00:37:40,275 IS GOING TO BE A POWERFUL TOOL FOR YOU 694 00:37:40,275 --> 00:37:44,413 TO BE ABLE TO LOSE WEIGHT AND MAINTAIN IT FOR LONG TERM. 695 00:37:44,413 --> 00:37:45,793 BUT IF YOU DON'T DO THIS, 696 00:37:45,793 --> 00:37:48,137 THEN IT WON'T MAKE ANY DIFFERENCE FOR YOU, 697 00:37:48,137 --> 00:37:50,793 BECAUSE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ISN'T A MAGIC TRICK 698 00:37:50,793 --> 00:37:53,241 THAT WILL FIX EVERYTHING FOR YOU. 699 00:37:53,241 --> 00:37:54,758 YOU UNDERSTAND ALL THAT? 700 00:37:54,758 --> 00:37:56,379 MM-HMM. ALRIGHT. 701 00:37:56,379 --> 00:37:59,241 SO I'M GIVING YOU THE SAME GOAL AS THE LAST TIME 702 00:37:59,241 --> 00:38:01,689 IF YOU WANT TO SHOW ME YOU'RE GETTING THIS 703 00:38:01,689 --> 00:38:04,551 AND THAT YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE THE CHOICES YOU NEED. 704 00:38:04,551 --> 00:38:07,275 AND IN TWO MONTHS, I WANT YOU TO LOSE 80 POUNDS. 705 00:38:07,275 --> 00:38:09,000 YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 706 00:38:09,000 --> 00:38:11,482 YEAH.OKAY. GOOD. 707 00:38:11,482 --> 00:38:13,793 ALRIGHT, ASHLEY. NICE TO SEE YOU. 708 00:38:13,793 --> 00:38:15,620 HOPEFULLY YOU CAN GET -- 709 00:38:15,620 --> 00:38:19,551 SHARPEN UP ALL THOSE TOOLS WE GAVE YOU... 710 00:38:19,551 --> 00:38:21,482 ALRIGHT.AND BE ABLE TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT. 711 00:38:21,482 --> 00:38:22,827 YES, SIR.OKAY? 712 00:38:22,827 --> 00:38:24,965 ALRIGHT.ALRIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU LATER. 713 00:38:24,965 --> 00:38:26,551 ALRIGHT.NICE TO SEE YOU. 714 00:38:26,551 --> 00:38:28,413 NICE TO SEE YOU, TOO. 715 00:38:33,103 --> 00:38:36,482 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M DISAPPOINTED TO SEE HOW LITTLE PROGRESS ASHLEY MADE 716 00:38:36,482 --> 00:38:39,275 AND HOW SHE'S CONTINUING TO MAKE EXCUSES 717 00:38:39,275 --> 00:38:44,137 TO JUSTIFY HER OVEREATING THAT DON'T LINE UP WITH REALITY. 718 00:38:44,137 --> 00:38:46,827 THE BOTTOM LINE IS, SHE'S CHOOSING TO OVEREAT 719 00:38:46,827 --> 00:38:49,068 AND DOESN'T WANT TO GIVE THAT UP. 720 00:38:49,068 --> 00:38:50,896 BUT SHE NEEDS TO WAKE UP SOON, 721 00:38:50,896 --> 00:38:52,758 BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T HAVE A LOT OF TIME 722 00:38:52,758 --> 00:38:54,862 TO KEEP GOING DOWN THE PATH SHE'S ON 723 00:38:54,862 --> 00:38:56,551 BEFORE SHE GETS TO A POINT 724 00:38:56,551 --> 00:38:59,827 WHERE THERE MAY NOT BE MUCH MORE WE CAN DO FOR HER. 725 00:39:05,103 --> 00:39:07,206 Ashley: I FEEL A LITTLE DISCOURAGED RIGHT NOW 726 00:39:07,206 --> 00:39:09,241 BECAUSE I KNOW HOW HARD I PUSHED 727 00:39:09,241 --> 00:39:12,689 TO GET GOOD PROGRESS THESE PAST TWO MONTHS. 728 00:39:12,689 --> 00:39:15,827 BUT GIVING UP IS NOT A WORD IN MY VOCABULARY, 729 00:39:15,827 --> 00:39:17,931 SO I'LL GO BACK AND TRY TO PUSH MYSELF 730 00:39:17,931 --> 00:39:19,896 SO I CAN COME BACK AND SHOW DR. NOW 731 00:39:19,896 --> 00:39:21,724 THE PROOF OF HOW I'M WORKING MYSELF 732 00:39:21,724 --> 00:39:24,241 TO BE WHERE I NEED WITH HIS GOAL, 733 00:39:24,241 --> 00:39:26,241 BECAUSE I KNOW I DON'T HAVE MORE CHANCES 734 00:39:26,241 --> 00:39:29,379 TO GET TO THE LIFE THAT I WANT FOR ME AND MY KIDS. 735 00:39:49,241 --> 00:39:52,448 Ashley: SINCE MY LAST APPOINTMENT WITH DR. NOW, I CAME BACK HOME, 736 00:39:52,448 --> 00:39:56,034 AND I'VE BEEN PUSHING MYSELF EVEN HARDER THIS TIME. 737 00:39:56,034 --> 00:39:58,103 I FEEL A LOT MORE CONFIDENT NOW 738 00:39:58,103 --> 00:40:01,344 THAN WHEN I LEFT MY APPOINTMENT ABOUT HOW I'M DOING. 739 00:40:01,344 --> 00:40:03,275 I WAS REALLY DISCOURAGED THEN 740 00:40:03,275 --> 00:40:06,000 BECAUSE OF HOW LITTLE MY WEIGHT DROPPED, BUT THIS TIME, 741 00:40:06,000 --> 00:40:09,448 I KNOW I'M GETTING A LOT MORE DOWN THE ROAD LIKE I NEED, 742 00:40:09,448 --> 00:40:11,724 BECAUSE I'M FEELING REALLY GOOD ABOUT MY PROGRESS AT THIS POINT, 743 00:40:11,724 --> 00:40:15,793 BECAUSE I'M DOING A LOT STRICTER THIS TIME WITH MY DIET. 744 00:40:15,793 --> 00:40:17,137 Tiffanie: ARE YOU READY, SIS? 745 00:40:17,137 --> 00:40:19,586 YEAH, I'M COMING. 746 00:40:19,586 --> 00:40:22,310 AND I'M WORKING HARDER WITH MY EXERCISE, TOO. 747 00:40:27,172 --> 00:40:29,068 MY LEG HURT. OOH! 748 00:40:29,068 --> 00:40:30,931 I'M-A GET THE WALKER JUST IN CASE. 749 00:40:30,931 --> 00:40:34,344 LEMON-LIME READY. 750 00:40:34,344 --> 00:40:36,068 DAMN WEIGHT. 751 00:40:36,068 --> 00:40:37,655 YOU GOT A WATER FOR ME? 752 00:40:37,655 --> 00:40:38,896 YES, MA'AM. 753 00:40:38,896 --> 00:40:41,620 ALRIGHT. 754 00:40:41,620 --> 00:40:42,931 OKAY. 755 00:40:42,931 --> 00:40:45,137 I KNOW DR. NOW SAYS MY ACTIVITY 756 00:40:45,137 --> 00:40:47,724 IS A LESSER PART OF MY WEIGHT LOSS, 757 00:40:47,724 --> 00:40:50,137 BUT I KNOW TO MYSELF HOW IMPORTANT IT IS 758 00:40:50,137 --> 00:40:53,655 FOR MY PROGRESS TO GET MORE MOVEMENT AND ACTIVITY. 759 00:40:56,275 --> 00:40:58,344 SO MY SISTER, TIFFANIE, HAS BEEN TAKING ME 760 00:40:58,344 --> 00:41:00,827 TO A GYM THIS PAST MONTH, 761 00:41:00,827 --> 00:41:03,482 AND I'M MAKING LARGE IMPROVEMENTS IN MY STAMINA 762 00:41:03,482 --> 00:41:07,517 TO WHERE I'M ABLE TO GET AROUND WITHOUT MY WALKER MORE. 763 00:41:07,517 --> 00:41:09,965 I STILL NEED IT BECAUSE OF MY KNEE AND BACK PAIN, 764 00:41:09,965 --> 00:41:13,034 BUT I CAN AT LEAST GO FOR A DISTANCE WITHOUT IT, 765 00:41:13,034 --> 00:41:17,517 SO THAT'S A HUGE IMPROVEMENT IN MY ABILITIES THAT I AM PROUD OF. 766 00:41:24,206 --> 00:41:26,000 OH, MAN. 767 00:41:27,896 --> 00:41:29,724 ALRIGHT. 768 00:41:29,724 --> 00:41:33,482 ALRIGHT. I'M-A TRY TO GO IN WITHOUT THE WALKER. 769 00:41:33,482 --> 00:41:35,068 DON'T KILL ME. 770 00:41:45,275 --> 00:41:47,137 READY? MM-HMM. 771 00:41:47,137 --> 00:41:48,586 YOU NEED ME TO LEAN ON? 772 00:41:48,586 --> 00:41:50,344 -HUH? -YOU GOT IT? 773 00:41:50,344 --> 00:41:52,379 GO AHEAD, GIRL. 774 00:41:56,034 --> 00:41:57,482 -HOW YOU DOING? -ALRIGHT. YOU? 775 00:41:57,482 --> 00:41:59,206 -GOOD. -HI. 776 00:41:59,206 --> 00:42:01,482 HELLO. 777 00:42:01,482 --> 00:42:05,103 Ashley: I'M MOSTLY FOCUSING ON THE TOP OF MY BODY AND MY ARMS, 778 00:42:05,103 --> 00:42:08,517 BUT I'VE BEEN DOING THE BOTTOM BODY, TOO. 779 00:42:08,517 --> 00:42:11,482 THE TREADMILL HAS BEEN GOOD BECAUSE I CAN REST ON THE BAR 780 00:42:11,482 --> 00:42:15,137 TO KEEP MY BALANCE AND TAKE THE PRESSURE OFF OF MY KNEES, 781 00:42:15,137 --> 00:42:18,689 WHICH IS MY MAIN OBSTACLE USING MY LEGS, 782 00:42:18,689 --> 00:42:23,241 SO THAT'S BEEN A HELP TO WHERE I CAN GO FOR LONGER NOW. 783 00:42:23,241 --> 00:42:25,586 SO I NOTICE IT'S HELPING ME A LOT. 784 00:42:25,586 --> 00:42:28,034 I CAN REALLY FEEL MY PROGRESS I'M MAKING THIS TIME 785 00:42:28,034 --> 00:42:30,793 MUCH MORE THAN LAST TIME. 786 00:42:30,793 --> 00:42:33,793 SO I'M VERY PROUD OF MY ACHIEVEMENTS THIS PAST MONTH, 787 00:42:33,793 --> 00:42:35,689 AND I FEEL LIKE MY CHANCES ARE REALLY GOOD 788 00:42:35,689 --> 00:42:38,103 FOR WHEN I GO BACK TO MY DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT 789 00:42:38,103 --> 00:42:40,551 IN A MONTH THAT I'LL HAVE BETTER RESULTS. 790 00:42:40,551 --> 00:42:43,448 AND HOPEFULLY THAT'LL MEAN THAT I GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 791 00:42:43,448 --> 00:42:48,275 WHEN DR. NOW SEES HOW IMPROVED I DID WITH MY WEIGHT THIS TIME. 792 00:42:48,275 --> 00:42:51,620 SO I'M LOOKING AHEAD TO BE ABLE TO BE ON THE SCALE AGAIN SOON 793 00:42:51,620 --> 00:42:55,068 TO SEE HOW LOW I GOT THE NUMBER TO THIS TIME, 794 00:42:55,068 --> 00:42:56,793 BECAUSE I THINK IT'S GOING TO BE A VERY HAPPY 795 00:42:56,793 --> 00:42:58,482 AND MEMORABLE MOMENT FOR ME 796 00:42:58,482 --> 00:43:00,620 BECAUSE OF WHAT I'M GOING TO ACHIEVE THEN. 797 00:43:15,586 --> 00:43:17,413 I'M BACK IN HOUSTON WITH MY SISTER 798 00:43:17,413 --> 00:43:19,689 TO BE AT MY NEXT APPOINTMENT FOR DR. NOW, 799 00:43:19,689 --> 00:43:21,758 AND I'M FEELING POSITIVE ABOUT MY RESULTS 800 00:43:21,758 --> 00:43:24,413 AND MY CHANCES OF SEEING THE GOAL I NEED TODAY 801 00:43:24,413 --> 00:43:29,172 AND GETTING MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY APPROVED TO MOVE AHEAD. 802 00:43:29,172 --> 00:43:31,448 BUT I KNOW I'M NOT GOING TO KNOW THAT FOR CERTAIN 803 00:43:31,448 --> 00:43:35,413 UNTIL I'M BEFORE THE SCALE, AND I SEE HOW LOW THE NUMBER IS. 804 00:43:35,413 --> 00:43:39,034 BUT I CAN FEEL A LOT OF PROGRESS IN MY BODY AND IN MY ABILITY 805 00:43:39,034 --> 00:43:41,172 BECAUSE OF WHAT I'M ABLE TO DO NOW, 806 00:43:41,172 --> 00:43:44,137 ESPECIALLY BECAUSE MY STAMINA HAS BEEN UP SO MUCH 807 00:43:44,137 --> 00:43:46,206 BECAUSE OF MY EXERCISE. 808 00:43:46,206 --> 00:43:47,931 I WAS EVEN HOPING TO SHOW DR. NOW 809 00:43:47,931 --> 00:43:50,827 HOW I DON'T NEED MY WALKER FOR AS MUCH, 810 00:43:50,827 --> 00:43:53,689 BUT THE LONG CAR DRIVE'S PUT TOO MUCH TRAUMA ON MY BODY 811 00:43:53,689 --> 00:43:56,206 TO BE ABLE TO DO THAT. 812 00:43:56,206 --> 00:43:57,896 SO I DON'T WANT TO PUSH MYSELF 813 00:43:57,896 --> 00:44:00,827 TO RISK BEING WITHOUT SOMETHING TO LEAN ON 814 00:44:00,827 --> 00:44:03,275 WITH MY BODY SO SORE AND FILLED WITH SO MUCH PAIN 815 00:44:03,275 --> 00:44:04,896 AFTER THIS DRIVE. 816 00:44:04,896 --> 00:44:07,034 BUT I KNOW MY SIZE HAS LESSENED A LOT 817 00:44:07,034 --> 00:44:11,724 BECAUSE I COULD REALLY FEEL THE WEIGHT LOSS I MADE THIS TIME. 818 00:44:11,724 --> 00:44:14,103 ASHLEY? 819 00:44:14,103 --> 00:44:16,551 SO I HAVE A LOT OF CONFIDENCE THAT ALL THE HARD WORK 820 00:44:16,551 --> 00:44:18,689 THAT I PUT IN THESE PAST TWO MONTHS 821 00:44:18,689 --> 00:44:21,275 IS GOING TO SHOW IN THE NUMBER I'M ABOUT TO GET 822 00:44:21,275 --> 00:44:23,482 AND THAT THIS WILL BE A PROUD MOMENT FOR ME 823 00:44:23,482 --> 00:44:24,586 THAT WILL HOPEFULLY LEAD 824 00:44:24,586 --> 00:44:26,862 TO FINALLY GETTING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 825 00:44:26,862 --> 00:44:29,862 AND THE HELP I NEED TO CHANGE MY LIFE. 826 00:44:45,344 --> 00:44:47,689 Ashley: I'M BACK AT DR. NOW FOR ANOTHER APPOINTMENT 827 00:44:47,689 --> 00:44:49,655 TO SEE IF I GOT MY NUMBER LOW ENOUGH 828 00:44:49,655 --> 00:44:51,517 TO GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 829 00:44:51,517 --> 00:44:54,275 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, I WAS DOWN TO 631, 830 00:44:54,275 --> 00:44:57,000 BUT DR. NOW GAVE ME THE 80-POUND GOAL AGAIN 831 00:44:57,000 --> 00:44:59,034 TO LOSE OVER TWO MONTHS, 832 00:44:59,034 --> 00:45:02,000 SO THAT MEANS I NEED TO BE LOWER THAN 551. 833 00:45:07,413 --> 00:45:08,965 I'LL TAKE THAT. 834 00:45:14,827 --> 00:45:18,620 IT'S NOT BELOW THE GOAL NUMBER, BUT IT'S A GOOD DROP, 835 00:45:18,620 --> 00:45:20,275 SO I'M PROUD OF THAT 836 00:45:20,275 --> 00:45:23,034 BECAUSE THAT PROGRESS IS SOMETHING I EARNED. 837 00:45:23,034 --> 00:45:24,827 AND I FEEL AS THOUGH IT'S BIG ENOUGH 838 00:45:24,827 --> 00:45:27,689 TO SHOW DR. NOW HOW MUCH MORE I'M PUSHING NOW 839 00:45:27,689 --> 00:45:29,551 TO GET TO WHERE I NEED. 840 00:45:29,551 --> 00:45:31,413 SO I STILL FEEL LIKE I HAVE A GOOD CHANCE 841 00:45:31,413 --> 00:45:33,413 TO GET MY APPROVAL FOR THAT TODAY. 842 00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:38,482 -HELLO. -HELLO. 843 00:45:38,482 --> 00:45:40,586 -HOW Y'ALL DOING? -ALRIGHT. 844 00:45:40,586 --> 00:45:42,275 GOOD. ALRIGHT. 845 00:45:42,275 --> 00:45:45,172 SO, YOU MADE SOME PROGRESS THIS TIME, HUH? 846 00:45:45,172 --> 00:45:46,206 YEAH. 847 00:45:46,206 --> 00:45:47,655 YOU LOST 44 POUNDS, 848 00:45:47,655 --> 00:45:49,655 SO YOU'RE MOVING IN BETTER DIRECTION, 849 00:45:49,655 --> 00:45:51,068 SO THAT'S GREAT. 850 00:45:51,068 --> 00:45:54,068 BUT IT'S STILL ONLY ABOUT HALF OF WHAT YOUR GOAL WAS. 851 00:45:54,068 --> 00:45:56,931 SO YOU STILL HAVEN'T MADE THE CHANGES TO YOUR DIET 852 00:45:56,931 --> 00:46:00,275 LIKE YOU NEED AND SHOW ME YOU'RE SERIOUS ABOUT THIS YET. 853 00:46:00,275 --> 00:46:01,620 SO WHY IS THAT? 854 00:46:01,620 --> 00:46:05,000 ARE YOU SERIOUS ABOUT LOSING WEIGHT? 855 00:46:05,000 --> 00:46:06,517 IT'S NOT THAT I'M NOT SERIOUS. 856 00:46:06,517 --> 00:46:09,965 IT'S JUST THAT I'VE BEEN REALLY DEALING WITH A LOT OF STRESS, 857 00:46:09,965 --> 00:46:12,724 EMOTIONAL THINGS, AND THERE'S, LIKE, 858 00:46:12,724 --> 00:46:15,241 A LOT OF FINANCIAL THINGS THAT I DEAL WITH. 859 00:46:15,241 --> 00:46:16,931 I HAVE CHILDREN. 860 00:46:16,931 --> 00:46:19,413 MY MOM'S SICK. 861 00:46:19,413 --> 00:46:23,931 THERE'S NOT MANY OTHER PEOPLE THAT CAN HELP WITH MY KIDS. 862 00:46:23,931 --> 00:46:26,206 SO IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU'RE STILL USING STRESS 863 00:46:26,206 --> 00:46:29,965 AS AN EXCUSE TO OVEREAT AND KILL YOURSELF WITH FOOD. 864 00:46:29,965 --> 00:46:33,413 SO YOU NEED TO STOP JUSTIFYING YOUR OVEREATING WITH STRESS, 865 00:46:33,413 --> 00:46:35,862 BECAUSE THE STRESS IS NEVER GOING AWAY. 866 00:46:35,862 --> 00:46:39,827 IT'S JUST A FACT OF LIFE THAT EVERYONE HAS TO DEAL WITH. 867 00:46:39,827 --> 00:46:43,482 I DON'T HAVE ANY SOLUTION FOR YOUR PROBLEMS. 868 00:46:43,482 --> 00:46:45,068 LAST THING YOU'RE GOING TO NEED WITH THAT 869 00:46:45,068 --> 00:46:47,517 WILL BE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, OKAY? 870 00:46:47,517 --> 00:46:50,172 WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ONLY BECOME A SOLUTION FOR YOU 871 00:46:50,172 --> 00:46:53,068 IF YOU FIGURE OUT WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOUR EATING HABIT 872 00:46:53,068 --> 00:46:54,689 AND CORRECT THOSE ISSUES, 873 00:46:54,689 --> 00:46:57,793 AND THAT ALL HAS TO START WITH YOU TAKING THE FIRST STEP 874 00:46:57,793 --> 00:47:00,827 AND SHOWING YOU'RE WILLING TO MAKE THE CHANGES YOU NEED. 875 00:47:00,827 --> 00:47:03,965 YOU DO THAT, THEN WE CAN GIVE YOU THE TOOLS TO KEEP GOING 876 00:47:03,965 --> 00:47:06,448 AND LEARN HOW TO GO IN HEALTHIER WAYS 877 00:47:06,448 --> 00:47:08,137 AND GIVE YOU WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 878 00:47:08,137 --> 00:47:11,275 BUT RIGHT NOW, FROM HOW YOU KEEP MAKING EXCUSES 879 00:47:11,275 --> 00:47:12,896 AND NOT LOSING MUCH WEIGHT, 880 00:47:12,896 --> 00:47:17,724 IT SEEMS LIKE YOU HAVE NONE OF THOSE INGREDIENT 881 00:47:17,724 --> 00:47:21,310 TO MAKE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TO BE SUCCESSFUL FOR YOU. 882 00:47:21,310 --> 00:47:22,551 OKAY? 883 00:47:22,551 --> 00:47:25,068 SO IF YOU WANT US TO CONSIDER ANY NEXT STEPS, 884 00:47:25,068 --> 00:47:29,000 THEN DO THE DIET AND LOSE AT LEAST 80 POUNDS OVER TWO MONTHS. 885 00:47:29,000 --> 00:47:32,655 BUT IF YOU DON'T, THEN THERE'S NOT MUCH WE CAN DO FOR YOU, 886 00:47:32,655 --> 00:47:36,275 BECAUSE YOU GOT SO MANY ISSUES THAT NEED TO BE RESOLVED 887 00:47:36,275 --> 00:47:37,931 THAT YOU THINK ARE GOOD EXCUSES 888 00:47:37,931 --> 00:47:39,931 TO KEEP KILLING YOURSELF WITH FOOD. 889 00:47:39,931 --> 00:47:41,068 YOU GOT THAT? 890 00:47:41,068 --> 00:47:43,482 YES. BUT I'M TRYING. 891 00:47:43,482 --> 00:47:45,482 I REALLY AM. 892 00:47:45,482 --> 00:47:46,931 I THINK YOU THINK YOU ARE, 893 00:47:46,931 --> 00:47:49,206 BUT WHAT YOU THINK IS NOT REALITY, 894 00:47:49,206 --> 00:47:52,793 BECAUSE THE SCALE DOESN'T LIE. SO WHAT YOU'RE SHOWING ME 895 00:47:52,793 --> 00:47:55,000 IS THAT YOU'RE NOT TAKING THIS SERIOUSLY, 896 00:47:55,000 --> 00:47:57,655 AND WHAT YOU KEEP SAYING TO ME IS YOU CAN'T DO IT 897 00:47:57,655 --> 00:48:00,241 BECAUSE OF ALL THE PROBLEMS YOU HAVE IN YOUR LIFE. 898 00:48:00,241 --> 00:48:04,413 AND SO THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO TO HELP YOU IF YOU BELIEVE THAT. 899 00:48:04,413 --> 00:48:06,793 I'M SAYING THAT IT'S A BATTLE AND THAT, 900 00:48:06,793 --> 00:48:09,241 EVEN THOUGH IT MAY NOT SEEM THAT I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING, 901 00:48:09,241 --> 00:48:10,689 I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING. 902 00:48:10,689 --> 00:48:15,620 I WORK OUT AT THE GYM, AND I TRY TO EAT THE RIGHT THINGS. 903 00:48:15,620 --> 00:48:18,482 AND AT TIMES, IT'S HARD, BUT I DON'T GIVE UP. 904 00:48:18,482 --> 00:48:19,931 I HAVEN'T GAINED WEIGHT... 905 00:48:19,931 --> 00:48:21,793 WELL --...IN THIS WHOLE TIME. 906 00:48:21,793 --> 00:48:23,931 ...IT'S NOT A MATTER OF GAINING. IT'S A MATTER OF -- 907 00:48:23,931 --> 00:48:26,517 AND I ALSO LOST AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, TOO, 908 00:48:26,517 --> 00:48:29,655 SO THAT'S FOUR MONTHS OF WEIGHT LOSS I'VE SHOWN YOU. 909 00:48:29,655 --> 00:48:32,862 OKAY, SO, IF YOU WANT TO KEEP ARGUING WITH ME 910 00:48:32,862 --> 00:48:34,206 AND MAKING EXCUSES, 911 00:48:34,206 --> 00:48:36,310 THEN WE DON'T NEED TO CONTINUE THIS, 912 00:48:36,310 --> 00:48:38,206 BUT WE ARE NOT MOVING AHEAD WITH YOU 913 00:48:38,206 --> 00:48:40,724 UNLESS YOU LOSE 80 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS. 914 00:48:40,724 --> 00:48:43,551 YOU DON'T AGREE WITH THAT, THEN THAT'S YOUR CHOICE. 915 00:48:43,551 --> 00:48:46,103 BUT THERE'LL BE NO POINT IN DOING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 916 00:48:46,103 --> 00:48:50,103 UNLESS YOU DO, BECAUSE YOU EXPECTING SOME MAGIC HAPPEN, 917 00:48:50,103 --> 00:48:51,482 AND YOU LOSE WEIGHT. 918 00:48:51,482 --> 00:48:52,931 YOU'RE EXPECTING THE SURGERY'S 919 00:48:52,931 --> 00:48:55,103 GOING TO CURE EVERYTHING FOR YOU, 920 00:48:55,103 --> 00:48:56,758 BUT THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. 921 00:48:56,758 --> 00:48:59,724 YOU GOT THAT? YEAH. 922 00:48:59,724 --> 00:49:02,034 ALRIGHT. ANY QUESTIONS? 923 00:49:02,034 --> 00:49:04,379 UM, NO. ALRIGHT. 924 00:49:04,379 --> 00:49:06,896 IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, GIVE ME A CALL. 925 00:49:15,103 --> 00:49:17,965 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M HAPPY TO SEE THAT ASHLEY LOST MORE WEIGHT 926 00:49:17,965 --> 00:49:19,551 THAN SHE DID LAST TIME, 927 00:49:19,551 --> 00:49:22,620 BUT SHE'S STILL EATING OVER TWO TIMES WHAT SHE SHOULD, 928 00:49:22,620 --> 00:49:24,827 SO HER PROGRESS IS STILL A GOOD WAYS 929 00:49:24,827 --> 00:49:26,827 FROM BEING WHERE IT NEEDS TO BE 930 00:49:26,827 --> 00:49:30,068 TO SHOW ME SHE'S READY TO DO WHAT IT TAKES TO SUCCEED 931 00:49:30,068 --> 00:49:31,551 WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 932 00:49:31,551 --> 00:49:33,827 AND UNFORTUNATELY THERE'S BEEN NO CHANGE 933 00:49:33,827 --> 00:49:37,448 IN HER ATTITUDE AND PERSPECTIVES WHERE SHE JUSTIFIES 934 00:49:37,448 --> 00:49:40,551 AND MAKES EXCUSES FOR HER CHOICES TO OVEREAT. 935 00:49:40,551 --> 00:49:42,137 AND UNTIL THAT CHANGES, 936 00:49:42,137 --> 00:49:44,482 THERE IS NOT GOING TO BE MUCH WE CAN DO FOR HER 937 00:49:44,482 --> 00:49:47,379 THAT WILL MAKE MUCH OF A DIFFERENCE IN THE LONG TERM. 938 00:49:47,379 --> 00:49:50,689 SO RIGHT NOW, THERE IS NO REASON TO MOVE AHEAD WITH HER, 939 00:49:50,689 --> 00:49:52,620 BUT HOPEFULLY SHE DECIDES SHE WANTS 940 00:49:52,620 --> 00:49:56,034 TO START TAKING RESPONSIBILITY FOR HER CHOICES AND HER LIFE 941 00:49:56,034 --> 00:49:59,448 AND CONTINUES TO LOSE MORE WEIGHT BY HER NEXT APPOINTMENT. 942 00:50:04,310 --> 00:50:07,206 Ashley: I DON'T FEEL DR. NOW IS BEING THE FAIREST WITH ME, 943 00:50:07,206 --> 00:50:10,448 BECAUSE MY PROGRESS MAY NOT BE WHERE HE WANTED IT, 944 00:50:10,448 --> 00:50:13,517 BUT IT STILL SHOWS MY DETERMINATION, 945 00:50:13,517 --> 00:50:16,620 AND IT'S A BIG IMPROVEMENT FROM THE LAST TIME. 946 00:50:16,620 --> 00:50:19,551 AND WITH WHAT IT TOOK FOR ME TO DO WHAT I DID THIS TIME, 947 00:50:19,551 --> 00:50:21,965 I'M NOT SURE HOW TO DO EVEN MORE NOW. 948 00:50:21,965 --> 00:50:24,000 BUT MY WHOLE LIFE IS STILL DEPENDING ON THIS, 949 00:50:24,000 --> 00:50:26,413 AND I DON'T WANT TO QUIT, BECAUSE IF I DO, 950 00:50:26,413 --> 00:50:29,517 THEN I'M OUT OF OPTIONS. 951 00:50:29,517 --> 00:50:32,103 SO EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT SURE HOW I'M GOING TO DO THIS, 952 00:50:32,103 --> 00:50:34,551 I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO GIVE MORE OF MYSELF 953 00:50:34,551 --> 00:50:37,724 AND PUSH EVEN HARDER TO MAKE IT, 954 00:50:37,724 --> 00:50:40,655 SINCE NOT HAVING THE CHANCE FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 955 00:50:40,655 --> 00:50:42,689 WILL COST ME EVERYTHING. 956 00:51:04,862 --> 00:51:08,137 AFTER MY LAST APPOINTMENT, I MADE A REALLY HARD DECISION 957 00:51:08,137 --> 00:51:12,137 THAT I FEEL IS A NECESSITY FOR ME RIGHT NOW, 958 00:51:12,137 --> 00:51:14,448 AND THAT IS TO MOVE OUT OF THIS HOUSE 959 00:51:14,448 --> 00:51:18,172 AND BE AWAY FOR A WHILE IN HOUSTON. 960 00:51:18,172 --> 00:51:20,551 AND I'M LEAVING TODAY TO DO THAT. 961 00:51:20,551 --> 00:51:23,586 BUT THIS DECISION IS BREAKING ME SOME INSIDE, 962 00:51:23,586 --> 00:51:27,551 BECAUSE, WITH THIS, I HAVE TO LEAVE MY BABIES. 963 00:51:27,551 --> 00:51:29,620 BUT I KNOW IF I WANT TO BE THEIR MOM, 964 00:51:29,620 --> 00:51:33,103 I HAVE TO LOWER MY WEIGHT AND GET HEALTHY FOR THEM. 965 00:51:33,103 --> 00:51:35,689 AND THE ONLY TIMES THAT I'M NOT DOING THE DIET 966 00:51:35,689 --> 00:51:40,413 IS WHEN I FACE TEMPTATIONS THAT MY FAMILY BRINGS INTO THE HOUSE. 967 00:51:40,413 --> 00:51:43,896 SO MY THOUGHT IS THAT THE ONLY THING THAT'S HOLDING ME BACK 968 00:51:43,896 --> 00:51:46,620 FROM DOING BETTER IS GETTING AWAY FROM THAT. 969 00:51:49,275 --> 00:51:51,724 AND THIS IS THE ONLY OPTION THAT I HAVE TO DO THAT. 970 00:51:51,724 --> 00:51:54,655 BUT HAVING TO DO THIS AND LEAVE MY KIDS 971 00:51:54,655 --> 00:51:57,413 IS BREAKING ME UP INSIDE. 972 00:51:57,413 --> 00:52:00,551 THE ONLY COMFORTING THING I HAVE IN THIS IS THAT MY SISTER, 973 00:52:00,551 --> 00:52:04,413 TIFFANIE, IS GOING TO COME WITH ME AND STAY TO HELP ME. 974 00:52:11,965 --> 00:52:14,586 YOU HAVE EVERYTHING PACKED? 975 00:52:14,586 --> 00:52:17,103 YES. STAYED UP ALL NIGHT. 976 00:52:17,103 --> 00:52:18,551 I'M EXHAUSTED. 977 00:52:18,551 --> 00:52:20,241 I'M SO STRESSED. 978 00:52:20,241 --> 00:52:21,379 I'M TRYING TO CATCH MY HEAD. 979 00:52:21,379 --> 00:52:22,896 I'M JUST STRESSED WITH THE VEHICLE. 980 00:52:22,896 --> 00:52:25,413 I'M STRESSED WITH THE FINANCIAL STABILITY, 981 00:52:25,413 --> 00:52:29,448 AND I'M STRESSED LEAVING MY KIDS, YOU KNOW? 982 00:52:31,655 --> 00:52:33,896 IT'S GOING TO BE ALRIGHT. 983 00:52:39,413 --> 00:52:41,000 OH, MAN. 984 00:52:43,034 --> 00:52:45,689 IT'S GOING TO BE HARD WITHOUT THE KIDS, 985 00:52:45,689 --> 00:52:49,724 BUT MAYBE I'LL JUST PUSH THAT HARDER TO GET BACK TO THEM. 986 00:52:56,482 --> 00:53:00,896 I JUST WANT TO GET ON THE ROAD AND GET THIS ALL OVER WITH. 987 00:53:00,896 --> 00:53:04,586 I JUST WANT IT TO BE DONE WITH AND TO GET THERE 988 00:53:04,586 --> 00:53:07,206 'CAUSE THIS IS SO STRESSFUL FOR ME, 989 00:53:07,206 --> 00:53:10,862 AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO EAT JUST TO DEAL WITH THE STRESS. 990 00:53:10,862 --> 00:53:14,758 LEAVING MY BABIES IS HEART-WRENCHING TO ME, 991 00:53:14,758 --> 00:53:17,965 BUT I KNOW THIS IS A SACRIFICE I GOT TO MAKE FOR THEM, 992 00:53:17,965 --> 00:53:21,137 AND IT BRINGS ME PAIN NOW, 993 00:53:21,137 --> 00:53:25,827 BUT IT'S TO BRING ME AND THEM JOY LATER, 994 00:53:25,827 --> 00:53:30,620 BECAUSE I'M DOING THIS TO BE THEIR MOM LIKE THEY DESERVE 995 00:53:30,620 --> 00:53:32,379 AND HAVE OPPORTUNITIES WITH THEM 996 00:53:32,379 --> 00:53:35,965 THAT I'M NOT GOING TO HAVE AS LONG AS I'M LIKE THIS. 997 00:53:35,965 --> 00:53:37,655 Tiffanie: MOMMY, I LOVE YOU. 998 00:53:37,655 --> 00:53:39,862 I'M GOING TO MISS YOU. 999 00:53:39,862 --> 00:53:42,689 I'LL MISS YOU, TOO. 1000 00:53:42,689 --> 00:53:44,379 YOU GO AND TELL HER. 1001 00:53:48,206 --> 00:53:50,482 BYE, DAD. BYE. 1002 00:53:50,482 --> 00:53:52,103 Y'ALL TAKE CARE OF Y'ALL SELF. 1003 00:53:52,103 --> 00:53:53,965 WE WILL. 1004 00:53:59,655 --> 00:54:00,896 I'M GONNA MISS YOU.DON'T CRY. 1005 00:54:00,896 --> 00:54:02,586 I'M GONNA MISS YOU, TOO. 1006 00:54:02,586 --> 00:54:04,000 I LOVE Y'ALL. 1007 00:54:07,517 --> 00:54:09,068 OH, MY LEG. 1008 00:54:09,068 --> 00:54:10,655 Tiffanie: COME ON, SHOW-OFF. 1009 00:54:10,655 --> 00:54:12,275 LET'S GO. 1010 00:54:14,689 --> 00:54:16,310 Ashley: I JUST HOPE ONCE I GET TO HOUSTON 1011 00:54:16,310 --> 00:54:18,241 AND FINISH THIS TRANSITION 1012 00:54:18,241 --> 00:54:20,172 THAT I'M ABLE TO DO ALL THE THINGS I NEED 1013 00:54:20,172 --> 00:54:23,068 TO GET TO THE GOAL FOR DR. NOW, 1014 00:54:23,068 --> 00:54:27,137 BECAUSE IF I'M NOT ABLE TO ACHIEVE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1015 00:54:27,137 --> 00:54:29,655 THIS WILL ALL HAVE BEEN FOR NOTHING. 1016 00:54:44,724 --> 00:54:46,862 Ashley: WE MADE IT TO HOUSTON. 1017 00:54:46,862 --> 00:54:48,482 THANKFULLY, ONCE WE GOT ON THE ROAD, 1018 00:54:48,482 --> 00:54:50,827 THERE WERE NO BIG ISSUES FOR US. 1019 00:54:50,827 --> 00:54:53,620 BUT IT'S BEEN AROUND FIVE HOURS OF DRIVING, 1020 00:54:53,620 --> 00:54:56,275 AND I COULD USE A REST. 1021 00:54:56,275 --> 00:54:59,965 SO, HOPEFULLY, THE TRENDS OF NOT HAVING ISSUES CONTINUES FOR US 1022 00:54:59,965 --> 00:55:02,689 AT THE PLACE WE'RE GOING TO BE LIVING 1023 00:55:02,689 --> 00:55:05,000 AND THAT WE CAN GET ALL OUR STUFF MOVED IN 1024 00:55:05,000 --> 00:55:09,034 SO I CAN FOCUS ON RECOVERING. 1025 00:55:09,034 --> 00:55:11,068 OH, GEEZ. 1026 00:55:38,655 --> 00:55:41,448 IT'S BEAUTIFUL. 1027 00:55:41,448 --> 00:55:43,517 THIS PLACE IS NICE. 1028 00:55:43,517 --> 00:55:45,103 THE FURNITURE'S A LITTLE SMALL 1029 00:55:45,103 --> 00:55:46,896 AND DOESN'T LOOK THE STURDIEST, THOUGH, 1030 00:55:46,896 --> 00:55:50,793 AND I HAVE TO HAVE STURDY FURNITURE TO BE ABLE TO HOLD ME. 1031 00:55:50,793 --> 00:55:55,103 BUT IT ALL LOOKS NICE AS LONG AS IT SUSTAINS ME. 1032 00:55:55,103 --> 00:55:56,724 I LIKE THE PLACE. 1033 00:55:56,724 --> 00:55:59,827 I'M NOT SURE HOW LONG WE CAN AFFORD TO STAY HERE, 1034 00:55:59,827 --> 00:56:02,206 BUT I THINK IT'S GOING TO BE A GOOD ESCAPE BEING HERE 1035 00:56:02,206 --> 00:56:06,034 TO WHERE I CAN JUST FOCUS ON MY HEALTH LIKE I NEED RIGHT NOW. 1036 00:56:06,034 --> 00:56:09,586 AND MY HOPE IS THAT, BY DOING THAT OVER THE NEXT MONTH, 1037 00:56:09,586 --> 00:56:11,724 I'LL BE ABLE TO GET DOWN TO THE GOAL I NEED 1038 00:56:11,724 --> 00:56:15,068 BY THE TIME I GO BACK BEFORE THE SCALE AND DR. NOW. 1039 00:56:18,517 --> 00:56:20,793 HEY, SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK? 1040 00:56:20,793 --> 00:56:23,241 I THINK IT'S CUTE. I THINK IT'S CUTE. 1041 00:56:23,241 --> 00:56:24,793 I'M HAPPY. 1042 00:56:34,758 --> 00:56:38,379 ME AND MY SISTER ARE ON OUR WAY TO MY NEXT DR. NOW APPOINTMENT 1043 00:56:38,379 --> 00:56:41,241 TO SEE WHERE I'M AT WITH MY PROGRESS NOW. 1044 00:56:41,241 --> 00:56:43,241 THIS HAS BEEN A VERY STRESSFUL MONTH 1045 00:56:43,241 --> 00:56:46,172 BEING MOVED DOWN HERE TO HOUSTON, AND WITH THAT, 1046 00:56:46,172 --> 00:56:48,827 I FEEL LIKE MY STAMINA HAS BEEN REGRESSED, 1047 00:56:48,827 --> 00:56:52,655 BECAUSE I'M HAVING TO USE MY WALKER LIKE I WAS BEFORE. 1048 00:56:52,655 --> 00:56:55,586 SO IT'S BEEN A LITTLE DISAPPOINTING. 1049 00:56:55,586 --> 00:56:57,758 BUT EVEN WITH HOW HARD THIS HAS BEEN, 1050 00:56:57,758 --> 00:57:00,517 I STAYED VERY STRICT AND PUSHED HARD ON MY DIET 1051 00:57:00,517 --> 00:57:03,551 TO LOSE AN EVEN BIGGER AMOUNT OF WEIGHT THIS TIME. 1052 00:57:06,275 --> 00:57:08,758 ASHLEY? 1053 00:57:08,758 --> 00:57:12,827 AT MY LAST APPOINTMENT, I MADE IT DOWN TO 587, 1054 00:57:12,827 --> 00:57:16,931 AND DR. NOW STILL SAY I NEED TO LOSE ANOTHER 80 POUNDS, 1055 00:57:16,931 --> 00:57:21,793 SO THE NUMBER I NEED TO SEE TODAY IS 507 OR BETTER. 1056 00:57:27,137 --> 00:57:30,793 I'M VERY PLEASED WITH THAT NUMBER. 1057 00:57:30,793 --> 00:57:32,620 I DO HAVE SOME WORRY THAT DR. NOW 1058 00:57:32,620 --> 00:57:35,517 WILL SEE IT AS FALLING SHORT FOR MY WEIGHT LOSS, 1059 00:57:35,517 --> 00:57:37,310 BUT I'M VERY PROUD OF HOW I IMPROVED 1060 00:57:37,310 --> 00:57:39,965 EVEN MORE THAN I LOST LAST TIME. 1061 00:57:39,965 --> 00:57:42,517 AND THIS VINDICATES MY PERSPECTIVES TO ME 1062 00:57:42,517 --> 00:57:46,655 THAT ALL MY CHOICES ARE MOVING ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 1063 00:57:46,655 --> 00:57:49,206 AND SO THAT'S WHAT I'M HOPING FOR DR. NOW TO SEE 1064 00:57:49,206 --> 00:57:50,586 AND UNDERSTAND TODAY 1065 00:57:50,586 --> 00:57:53,068 SO THAT HE RECOGNIZES HOW VERY READY 1066 00:57:53,068 --> 00:57:56,655 AND, I THINK, HOW VERY PREPARED I AM FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1067 00:58:00,068 --> 00:58:01,586 HELLO. HOW Y'ALL DOING? 1068 00:58:01,586 --> 00:58:04,103 HELLO. WE'RE DOING GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1069 00:58:04,103 --> 00:58:05,448 GOOD. 1070 00:58:05,448 --> 00:58:09,793 ALRIGHT. SO, A LOT HAS HAPPENED SINCE LAST TIME I SAW YOU. 1071 00:58:09,793 --> 00:58:12,379 WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON? TELL ME. 1072 00:58:12,379 --> 00:58:15,758 WELL, LIKE I MENTIONED TO YOU, WE MOVED TO HOUSTON. 1073 00:58:15,758 --> 00:58:19,862 SO WE CAME. WE SETTLED IN AN APARTMENT 1074 00:58:19,862 --> 00:58:22,551 AND JUST BEEN SETTLING HERE FOR THE PAST MONTH. 1075 00:58:22,551 --> 00:58:24,862 SO ARE YOU FULLY MOVED TO HOUSTON NOW? 1076 00:58:24,862 --> 00:58:25,931 YES. 1077 00:58:25,931 --> 00:58:29,620 OKAY. SO, WHO IS WITH YOU IN HOUSTON? 1078 00:58:29,620 --> 00:58:31,793 IT'S MY SISTER, TIFFANIE. 1079 00:58:31,793 --> 00:58:33,172 WE BOTH MOVED HERE. 1080 00:58:33,172 --> 00:58:34,620 AND WHO ELSE? 1081 00:58:34,620 --> 00:58:37,931 AND HER BOYFRIEND, BUT I THINK HE'S GOING TO GO BACK, 1082 00:58:37,931 --> 00:58:40,034 SO IT'S PROBABLY JUST GOING TO BE ME AND HER. 1083 00:58:40,034 --> 00:58:42,724 SO WHO'S TAKING CARE OF YOUR BABY? 1084 00:58:42,724 --> 00:58:44,827 SHE'S AT HOME WITH MY MOM. 1085 00:58:44,827 --> 00:58:46,206 YOU MISSING YOUR BABY? 1086 00:58:46,206 --> 00:58:51,344 YES, I'M MISSING MY CHILDREN A LOT, BUT... 1087 00:58:51,344 --> 00:58:52,413 I CAME HERE. I MADE IT. 1088 00:58:52,413 --> 00:58:55,206 AND I'M DOING EVERYTHING I CAN TO DO IT. 1089 00:58:55,206 --> 00:58:57,344 NOW, HOW'S THAT GOING TO WORK? 1090 00:58:57,344 --> 00:59:02,172 I'M JUST TRYING TO DO EVERYTHING I CAN TO DO ALL THE STEPS 1091 00:59:02,172 --> 00:59:06,413 TO GET THE SURGERY AND THEN HOPEFULLY MAYBE GO BACK. 1092 00:59:06,413 --> 00:59:09,965 WELL, YOUR RESPONSIBILITY IS TO YOURSELF AND YOUR KIDS. 1093 00:59:09,965 --> 00:59:11,965 THEY NEED THEIR MOM AROUND LATER, 1094 00:59:11,965 --> 00:59:14,103 BUT THEY NEED THEIR MOM NOW, TOO, 1095 00:59:14,103 --> 00:59:16,586 SO MAYBE AT SOME POINT YOU CAN BRING THEM DOWN HERE 1096 00:59:16,586 --> 00:59:19,793 TO BE WITH YOU IF YOU'RE LIVING HERE NOW. 1097 00:59:19,793 --> 00:59:22,034 I'LL TRY. OKAY. 1098 00:59:22,034 --> 00:59:25,482 WELL, THE GOOD NEWS IS THAT YOU MADE MORE PROGRESS THIS TIME. 1099 00:59:25,482 --> 00:59:29,724 YOU LOST 67 POUNDS, WHICH IS NOT AS MUCH AS YOUR 80-POUND GOAL, 1100 00:59:29,724 --> 00:59:33,275 BUT IT'S BETTER THAN THE 44 POUNDS YOU LOST LAST TIME. 1101 00:59:33,275 --> 00:59:37,034 SO THAT'S POSITIVE PROGRESS THAT I'M HAPPY TO SEE FROM YOU. 1102 00:59:37,034 --> 00:59:38,413 THANK YOU. 1103 00:59:38,413 --> 00:59:41,793 BUT YOU'RE STILL OVEREATING A LITTLE BIT MORE THAN YOU SHOULD. 1104 00:59:41,793 --> 00:59:44,448 BUT YOU ARE MAKING PROGRESS THAT IS CONSISTENT. 1105 00:59:44,448 --> 00:59:46,655 SO I SEE THE POSITIVE CHANGES YOU'RE MAKING, 1106 00:59:46,655 --> 00:59:48,448 AND I'M PROUD OF YOU FOR THAT. 1107 00:59:48,448 --> 00:59:49,896 THANK YOU. 1108 00:59:49,896 --> 00:59:51,586 SO, THIS IS WHERE WE ARE AT. 1109 00:59:51,586 --> 00:59:53,413 YOU HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 100 POUNDS, 1110 00:59:53,413 --> 00:59:56,896 AND YOU HAVE MADE SOME GOOD CHANGES IN YOUR EATING HABIT, 1111 00:59:56,896 --> 00:59:59,586 AND IT'S SHOWING THAT YOU ARE LOSING WEIGHT, 1112 00:59:59,586 --> 01:00:01,724 AND YOU'RE MOVING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION, 1113 01:00:01,724 --> 01:00:04,482 SO I WILL APPROVE YOU FOR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1114 01:00:06,482 --> 01:00:08,620 OH, MY GOSH. ARE YOU SERIOUS? 1115 01:00:08,620 --> 01:00:10,482 YES. BUT HERE'S THE CONDITION. 1116 01:00:10,482 --> 01:00:12,482 OKAY?OKAY. 1117 01:00:12,482 --> 01:00:14,275 I'M GOING TO SCHEDULE YOUR SURGERY 1118 01:00:14,275 --> 01:00:17,241 FOR TWO MONTHS FROM NOW, AND WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO 1119 01:00:17,241 --> 01:00:19,862 IS CONTINUE TO LOSE AT LEAST 20 POUNDS A MONTH. 1120 01:00:19,862 --> 01:00:21,689 SO BY THE TIME OF YOUR OPERATION, 1121 01:00:21,689 --> 01:00:24,206 YOU SHOULD HAVE LOST ANOTHER 40 POUNDS. 1122 01:00:24,206 --> 01:00:26,344 IF YOU DO THAT AND YOUR TESTS ARE GOOD, 1123 01:00:26,344 --> 01:00:28,827 WE WILL MOVE AHEAD WITH YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1124 01:00:28,827 --> 01:00:30,482 YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 1125 01:00:30,482 --> 01:00:32,275 YES. I KNOW I CAN. 1126 01:00:32,275 --> 01:00:35,793 GREAT. SO JUST KEEP GOING IN THE DIRECTION YOU ARE NOW, 1127 01:00:35,793 --> 01:00:37,137 AND IF YOU NEED ANYTHING 1128 01:00:37,137 --> 01:00:39,517 BEFORE I SEE YOU NEXT, GIVE ME A CALL. 1129 01:00:39,517 --> 01:00:40,827 OKAY. 1130 01:00:40,827 --> 01:00:43,379 ANY QUESTION?I HAVE A QUESTION. 1131 01:00:43,379 --> 01:00:45,793 YEAH.WOULD YOU BE ABLE TO CHECK ON 1132 01:00:45,793 --> 01:00:47,586 SOME OF THE THINGS WITH MY STOMACH? 1133 01:00:47,586 --> 01:00:51,241 SOMETIME IT'S CRAMPS. 1134 01:00:51,241 --> 01:00:54,344 AT TIMES, IT CAN BE GAS 1135 01:00:54,344 --> 01:00:56,275 OR UPSET STOMACH. 1136 01:00:56,275 --> 01:00:58,586 HAS IT BEEN GOING ON FOR LONG? 1137 01:00:58,586 --> 01:01:01,724 YEAH. I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH STOMACH ISSUES FOR A WHILE. 1138 01:01:01,724 --> 01:01:04,931 OKAY. AND SO WE NEED TO DETERMINE WHAT'S BEHIND THAT, 1139 01:01:04,931 --> 01:01:06,551 SO WE NEED TO DO ENDOSCOPY, 1140 01:01:06,551 --> 01:01:08,862 SEE WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOUR STOMACH PAIN 1141 01:01:08,862 --> 01:01:10,862 AND MAKE SURE THAT WE KNOW, 1142 01:01:10,862 --> 01:01:12,931 IF WE HAVE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1143 01:01:12,931 --> 01:01:15,172 THAT NOT GOING TO AFFECT YOUR STOMACH PAIN, 1144 01:01:15,172 --> 01:01:19,413 MAKE IT WORSE, 'CAUSE THAT CAN BE A RISK FACTOR WITH THAT. 1145 01:01:19,413 --> 01:01:20,724 MM-HMM. 1146 01:01:20,724 --> 01:01:23,000 SO WE WILL SET YOU UP FOR THAT, OKAY? 1147 01:01:23,000 --> 01:01:26,241 BUT IF THE PAIN GET WORSE BEFORE THEN, LET ME KNOW. 1148 01:01:26,241 --> 01:01:27,862 OKAY.ALRIGHT. 1149 01:01:27,862 --> 01:01:29,517 ANY OTHER QUESTION? 1150 01:01:29,517 --> 01:01:31,000 NO. THAT'S IT. 1151 01:01:31,000 --> 01:01:33,103 OKAY. WELL, NICE TO SEE YOU. 1152 01:01:33,103 --> 01:01:35,103 NICE TO SEE YOU, TOO.AND NICE TO SEE YOU. 1153 01:01:35,103 --> 01:01:37,137 I'LL SEE YOU ALL AGAIN, OKAY? 1154 01:01:37,137 --> 01:01:39,344 ALRIGHT.ALRIGHT. 1155 01:01:43,275 --> 01:01:46,206 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M VERY HAPPY TO SEE THAT ASHLEY HAS CONTINUED 1156 01:01:46,206 --> 01:01:50,068 TO IMPROVE ON HER EATING HABITS AND THE PROGRESS SHE'S MAKING. 1157 01:01:50,068 --> 01:01:52,068 AND EVEN THOUGH SHE'S NOT QUITE LOSING 1158 01:01:52,068 --> 01:01:53,724 THE AMOUNT I GAVE HER AS A GOAL, 1159 01:01:53,724 --> 01:01:56,172 I HAVE SEEN ENOUGH FROM HER TO CONVINCE ME 1160 01:01:56,172 --> 01:01:58,413 SHE'S WORKING HARD TO MAKE THE CHANGES SHE NEEDS 1161 01:01:58,413 --> 01:02:01,413 TO BE SUCCESSFUL IN THE LONG RUN. 1162 01:02:01,413 --> 01:02:04,275 SHE IS STILL STRUGGLING WITH MAKING SOME EXCUSES, 1163 01:02:04,275 --> 01:02:06,103 AND SHE'S ALSO MAKING CHOICES 1164 01:02:06,103 --> 01:02:08,137 THAT SEEM TO BE MAKING HER SITUATION 1165 01:02:08,137 --> 01:02:11,551 MORE COMPLICATED AND STRESSFUL FOR HER AND HER KIDS. 1166 01:02:11,551 --> 01:02:13,310 SO WE WILL WORK WITH HER 1167 01:02:13,310 --> 01:02:16,517 TO CONTINUE TO ADDRESS THOSE THINGS WITH HER, AS WELL. 1168 01:02:16,517 --> 01:02:18,448 BUT AS LONG AS HER TESTS LOOK GOOD 1169 01:02:18,448 --> 01:02:21,586 AND SHE LOSES AT LEAST 40 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS, 1170 01:02:21,586 --> 01:02:23,241 THEN WE'LL BE ABLE TO MOVE AHEAD 1171 01:02:23,241 --> 01:02:25,896 WITH HER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY HERE SOON. 1172 01:02:30,827 --> 01:02:33,034 Ashley: I HAVE A LOT OF EXCITEMENT RIGHT NOW, 1173 01:02:33,034 --> 01:02:34,620 AND I'M FEELING VERY PROUD OF MYSELF 1174 01:02:34,620 --> 01:02:36,689 FOR ACHIEVING APPROVAL TODAY. 1175 01:02:36,689 --> 01:02:38,413 I WAS FEARFUL IT WASN'T GOING TO HAPPEN 1176 01:02:38,413 --> 01:02:40,896 BECAUSE MY PROGRESS WASN'T LOW ENOUGH ON THE SCALE 1177 01:02:40,896 --> 01:02:43,862 TO BE AT MY GOAL, BUT MY HOPE WAS THAT DR. NOW 1178 01:02:43,862 --> 01:02:46,620 WOULD SEE THE POSITIVE WITH HOW FAR I COME. 1179 01:02:46,620 --> 01:02:48,275 AND I'M VERY THANKFUL HE DID 1180 01:02:48,275 --> 01:02:51,172 AND THAT HE'S MOVING ME AHEAD WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1181 01:02:51,172 --> 01:02:54,551 BECAUSE THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN WORKING MY HARDEST FOR. 1182 01:03:13,482 --> 01:03:16,655 Ashley: SINCE I GOT MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY APPROVED LAST MONTH, 1183 01:03:16,655 --> 01:03:18,965 I STAYED MOTIVATED TO CONTINUE ON TRACK 1184 01:03:18,965 --> 01:03:22,896 WITH MY PROGRESS LIKE DR. NOW SAID I HAD TO DO. 1185 01:03:22,896 --> 01:03:27,068 HE GAVE ME A GOAL OF LOSING A MINIMUM OF 20 POUNDS A MONTH 1186 01:03:27,068 --> 01:03:29,034 UNTIL SURGERY, 1187 01:03:29,034 --> 01:03:31,206 BUT MY GOAL FOR MYSELF THESE MONTHS 1188 01:03:31,206 --> 01:03:34,241 IS TO BE DOING AS GOOD AS I HAVE BEEN. 1189 01:03:34,241 --> 01:03:38,000 SO I'VE BEEN PUSHING MYSELF JUST AS HARD AND THEN HARDER NOW 1190 01:03:38,000 --> 01:03:40,931 BECAUSE I'M NOT ONLY STAYING STRICT WITH MY DIET, 1191 01:03:40,931 --> 01:03:42,517 BUT MY MOM SENT ME SOME MONEY 1192 01:03:42,517 --> 01:03:44,862 DEDICATED TO ME GETTING A GYM MEMBERSHIP 1193 01:03:44,862 --> 01:03:48,275 SO I COULD START MY EXERCISES AGAIN. 1194 01:03:48,275 --> 01:03:52,172 SO I FOUND A SMALL ONE THAT'S NOT TOO MUCH ON THE COSTLY SIDE. 1195 01:03:52,172 --> 01:03:55,758 I BEEN GOING TO IT TO BUILD SOME OF MY STAMINA UP, 1196 01:03:55,758 --> 01:03:57,862 AND THAT'S FELT REALLY GOOD, AND I'M PROUD OF MYSELF 1197 01:03:57,862 --> 01:04:01,862 FOR PRIORITIZING THIS AND FOR DOING THIS ON MY OWN, 1198 01:04:01,862 --> 01:04:04,965 BECAUSE I'M FINDING MOTIVATION IN MYSELF TO DO THIS 1199 01:04:04,965 --> 01:04:07,413 INSTEAD OF NEEDING TIFFANIE TO GO WITH ME, 1200 01:04:07,413 --> 01:04:11,689 TO ENCOURAGE ME AND BE A COMFORT FOR ME WHEN I PUSH MYSELF. 1201 01:04:11,689 --> 01:04:14,551 SO I'M FEELING REALLY GOOD. 1202 01:04:14,551 --> 01:04:18,586 MY MOBILITY IS GETTING BETTER BECAUSE I'VE BEEN WORKING OUT 1203 01:04:18,586 --> 01:04:21,689 SINCE EVEN BEFORE I WAS EATING CORRECTLY. 1204 01:04:21,689 --> 01:04:24,620 I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN PUSHING AND FIGHTING, 1205 01:04:24,620 --> 01:04:27,310 SO I DO FEEL LIKE I'M IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION 1206 01:04:27,310 --> 01:04:30,931 TO LOSE THE WEIGHT THAT DR. NOW WANT ME TO. 1207 01:04:30,931 --> 01:04:32,965 I'M NOT QUITE BACK TO WHERE I CAN BE 1208 01:04:32,965 --> 01:04:35,517 WITHOUT MY WALKER WHEN I GET AROUND, 1209 01:04:35,517 --> 01:04:38,379 BUT I KNOW THAT, AS I KEEP PUSHING MYSELF 1210 01:04:38,379 --> 01:04:39,689 AND STICK WITH THIS, 1211 01:04:39,689 --> 01:04:43,517 THAT I'LL BE BACK TO THAT PLACE SOON. 1212 01:04:43,517 --> 01:04:46,206 I DEFINITELY FEEL LIKE I'M LOSING WEIGHT. 1213 01:04:46,206 --> 01:04:48,793 IT FEELS A LOT BETTER. 1214 01:04:48,793 --> 01:04:51,103 BUT IT KIND OF HITS HOME 1215 01:04:51,103 --> 01:04:52,931 WHENEVER IT'S NIGHTTIME, YOU KNOW, 1216 01:04:52,931 --> 01:04:54,551 'CAUSE SOMETIMES I CAN'T SLEEP 1217 01:04:54,551 --> 01:04:56,517 'CAUSE I REALLY MISS MY CHILDREN. 1218 01:05:00,068 --> 01:05:02,724 OOH, I GET TO EAT. 1219 01:05:05,344 --> 01:05:07,310 -OH, OH, OH. -OH, I'M SORRY. 1220 01:05:07,310 --> 01:05:09,586 I'M HOT, BUT I AIN'T TRYING TO BE THAT KIND OF HOT. 1221 01:05:09,586 --> 01:05:11,724 MUY CALIENTENOW. 1222 01:05:11,724 --> 01:05:15,310 IT'S NOT A HOT GIRL SUMMER. 1223 01:05:15,310 --> 01:05:18,275 OKAY. I'LL GRAB PLATES. 1224 01:05:18,275 --> 01:05:20,931 I KNOW THE BIGGEST ELEMENT TO MY PROGRESS 1225 01:05:20,931 --> 01:05:24,551 FROM WHAT DR. NOW REMINDS ME IS MY EATING. 1226 01:05:24,551 --> 01:05:27,896 SO I'VE BEEN HOLDING TO MY DIET JUST LIKE I WAS 1227 01:05:27,896 --> 01:05:31,103 AND MAKING HEALTHY MEALS FOR ME AND TIFFANIE TO EAT. 1228 01:05:31,103 --> 01:05:33,689 AND I THINK I'M GETTING GOOD AT GETTING IT TASTY 1229 01:05:33,689 --> 01:05:38,655 BUT KEEPING THE CALORIES LOW STILL IN COMPLIANCE TO THE DIET. 1230 01:05:38,655 --> 01:05:42,448 OLD ASHLEY WOULD HAVE HAD A GUMBO WITH A POTATO SALAD 1231 01:05:42,448 --> 01:05:45,206 OR éTOUFFéE WITH THE TEXAS TOAST. 1232 01:05:45,206 --> 01:05:48,931 I FEEL LIKE THE CHANGES ARE HUGE. 1233 01:05:48,931 --> 01:05:50,517 SEE? 1234 01:05:50,517 --> 01:05:53,517 Tiffanie: ASHLEY'S DOING REAL GOOD. EVER SINCE WE MOVE OUT HERE, 1235 01:05:53,517 --> 01:05:56,551 SHE'S CHANGED SO MUCH OF HER FOOD, 1236 01:05:56,551 --> 01:06:00,068 AND I BELIEVE THAT SHE WILL HAVE HER SURGERY. 1237 01:06:00,068 --> 01:06:02,034 COME ON, BEAUTIFUL. 1238 01:06:02,034 --> 01:06:03,551 NO. 1239 01:06:03,551 --> 01:06:08,379 I FEEL BEAUTIFUL IS PAIN IS A DIFFERENT LEVEL. 1240 01:06:08,379 --> 01:06:10,896 GIRL, JUST THINK ABOUT IT. 1241 01:06:10,896 --> 01:06:14,310 YOU GOT TO FEEL THE PAIN BEFORE YOU FEEL THE REWARD. 1242 01:06:16,965 --> 01:06:21,000 FEELING LIKE A WARRIOR ABOUT TO EAT THIS GOURMET MEAL. 1243 01:06:23,931 --> 01:06:25,517 LOOK WHAT I FOUND. 1244 01:06:29,379 --> 01:06:32,172 Ashley: SO I'M FEELING VERY GOOD ABOUT ALL MY PROGRESS 1245 01:06:32,172 --> 01:06:34,172 AND THAT I'M LOWERING MY WEIGHT LIKE I NEED 1246 01:06:34,172 --> 01:06:36,379 SO THAT WHEN I GO TO GET MY SURGERY, 1247 01:06:36,379 --> 01:06:38,482 I'LL BE AT THE GOAL I NEED, 1248 01:06:38,482 --> 01:06:40,413 AND DR. NOW WILL MOVE AHEAD WITH ME 1249 01:06:40,413 --> 01:06:43,068 SO I CAN BE ABLE TO TAKE THE STEP I'VE BEEN WAITING ON, 1250 01:06:43,068 --> 01:06:45,862 TO GET TO THE PLACE THAT I NEED WITH MY NEW LIFE. 1251 01:06:45,862 --> 01:06:48,275 AND I'M VERY MUCH LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT. 1252 01:06:58,517 --> 01:07:02,137 RIGHT NOW, ME AND MY SISTER ARE HEADED BACK TO DR. NOW'S CLINIC 1253 01:07:02,137 --> 01:07:05,793 BECAUSE HIS OFFICE CALLED ME AND ASKED ME TO COME BACK IN. 1254 01:07:05,793 --> 01:07:07,137 SO THAT'S WHAT I'M DOING, 1255 01:07:07,137 --> 01:07:09,758 BUT I'M EXTREMELY NERVOUS ABOUT THIS, 1256 01:07:09,758 --> 01:07:13,413 BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW THE REASON WHY THEY NEED THIS FROM ME. 1257 01:07:13,413 --> 01:07:16,586 MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY IS SUPPOSED TO BE NEXT WEEK, 1258 01:07:16,586 --> 01:07:19,724 AND THEY DID MY TESTING FOR IT LIKE TWO DAYS AGO. 1259 01:07:19,724 --> 01:07:23,000 SO MY SPECULATION IS THAT THEY MAYBE FOUND SOMETHING 1260 01:07:23,000 --> 01:07:24,137 THAT'S AN ISSUE 1261 01:07:24,137 --> 01:07:28,137 TO KEEP ME FROM MOVING AHEAD WITH MY SURGERY. 1262 01:07:28,137 --> 01:07:30,724 THANK YOU. 1263 01:07:30,724 --> 01:07:33,482 AND I'M VERY SCARED OF THAT, BECAUSE, IF THAT HAPPENS, 1264 01:07:33,482 --> 01:07:34,827 IT'S GOING TO DEVASTATE ME, 1265 01:07:34,827 --> 01:07:37,275 BECAUSE IF I'M NOT ABLE TO DO THIS, 1266 01:07:37,275 --> 01:07:41,344 THEN I'M GOING TO LOSE ALL I WORKED FOR. 1267 01:07:41,344 --> 01:07:44,379 THANK YOU. 1268 01:07:44,379 --> 01:07:47,793 SO I'M PRAYING THAT'S NOT THE SITUATION I'M GOING INTO, 1269 01:07:47,793 --> 01:07:51,103 BUT I'M TERRIFIED IT IS AND THAT THERE'S SOME REASON 1270 01:07:51,103 --> 01:07:54,689 I'M GOING TO BE TOLD I'M NOT ABLE TO CONTINUE ON. 1271 01:07:54,689 --> 01:07:56,344 THAT'S GOING TO COST ME EVERYTHING. 1272 01:08:10,379 --> 01:08:13,034 Ashley: ME AND MY SISTER ARE BACK AT DR. NOW'S 1273 01:08:13,034 --> 01:08:16,551 FOR AN UNEXPECTED APPOINTMENT BECAUSE HE WANTED TO SEE ME. 1274 01:08:16,551 --> 01:08:20,275 AND MY BIG CONCERN IS THAT THERE IS AN ISSUE WITH MY TESTING 1275 01:08:20,275 --> 01:08:22,000 THAT'S SHOWING I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO GET 1276 01:08:22,000 --> 01:08:25,137 MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY LIKE I WAS SUPPOSED TO NEXT WEEK. 1277 01:08:25,137 --> 01:08:27,068 SO MY NERVES ARE ALL OVER THE PLACE, 1278 01:08:27,068 --> 01:08:30,137 AND I'M EXTREMELY WORRIED ABOUT WHAT'S ABOUT TO HAPPEN. 1279 01:08:33,103 --> 01:08:34,965 ASHLEY? 1280 01:08:34,965 --> 01:08:37,448 I HOPEFULLY WILL HAVE GOOD NEWS FROM THE SCALE 1281 01:08:37,448 --> 01:08:40,172 WITH MY WEIGHT LOSS, BECAUSE I'VE NOT SLACKED 1282 01:08:40,172 --> 01:08:43,655 ON PUSHING MYSELF THE HARDEST I CAN. 1283 01:08:43,655 --> 01:08:48,034 THE LAST NUMBER I GOT FROM THE SCALE WAS 520 TWO MONTHS AGO, 1284 01:08:48,034 --> 01:08:50,034 AND THE GOAL I NEEDED FROM DR. NOW 1285 01:08:50,034 --> 01:08:52,655 WAS TO LOSE ANOTHER 40 POUNDS BY NEXT WEEK 1286 01:08:52,655 --> 01:08:56,482 SINCE THAT'S WHEN MY SURGERY IS SUPPOSED TO BE. 1287 01:08:56,482 --> 01:09:00,551 BUT I'VE WORKED TO SURPASS THAT FOR MY OWN GOALS OF LOSING MORE, 1288 01:09:00,551 --> 01:09:03,310 SO I THINK I'LL GET A GOOD NUMBER TODAY. 1289 01:09:16,413 --> 01:09:20,517 I WISH I FELT MORE LIKE CELEBRATING THAT NUMBER. 1290 01:09:20,517 --> 01:09:23,206 AND NORMALLY, THIS WOULD BE A VERY MEMORABLE MOMENT 1291 01:09:23,206 --> 01:09:28,206 FOR ME TO DO THAT WITH BEING IN THE 400s. 1292 01:09:28,206 --> 01:09:30,862 BUT I'M FEARING WHAT DR. NOW MIGHT TELL ME 1293 01:09:30,862 --> 01:09:34,551 AND IF IT'LL MEAN I CAN'T MOVE AHEAD WITH THE SURGERY I NEED 1294 01:09:34,551 --> 01:09:36,758 'CAUSE MY PROGRESS WILL ALL BE POINTLESS 1295 01:09:36,758 --> 01:09:38,103 IF I'M NOT ABLE TO AT LEAST 1296 01:09:38,103 --> 01:09:40,241 GET WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TO KEEP IT OFF. 1297 01:09:48,689 --> 01:09:50,551 HI, ASHLEY.HEY. 1298 01:09:50,551 --> 01:09:52,551 HOW ARE YOU?I'M GOOD. HOW ARE YOU? 1299 01:09:52,551 --> 01:09:54,758 I'M DOING GOOD. 1300 01:09:54,758 --> 01:09:56,896 SO, AS YOU KNOW, WE RAN THE TESTS WE NEED 1301 01:09:56,896 --> 01:10:00,275 TO SEE IF THERE ARE ANY MEDICAL ISSUES WITH MOVING AHEAD 1302 01:10:00,275 --> 01:10:02,000 WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY FOR YOU. 1303 01:10:02,000 --> 01:10:05,620 AND THE ISSUE WE GOT THAT, YOU KNOW, YOU SEEMED LIKE 1304 01:10:05,620 --> 01:10:10,103 TO HAVE SOME DIGESTIVE PROBLEM WITH IRRITABLE BOWEL SYNDROME 1305 01:10:10,103 --> 01:10:12,931 WITH THIS ABDOMINAL PAIN THAT YOU HAVE. 1306 01:10:12,931 --> 01:10:17,275 MY CONCERN IS THAT IF WE DO WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 1307 01:10:17,275 --> 01:10:20,689 THAT ISSUE MAY BECOME MORE EXAGGERATED 1308 01:10:20,689 --> 01:10:22,655 AND GIVE US MORE TROUBLE WITH THAT. 1309 01:10:22,655 --> 01:10:26,206 SO I THINK WE NEED TO TREAT THAT CONDITION 1310 01:10:26,206 --> 01:10:28,206 THAT YOU HAVE WITH YOUR G.I. TRACK 1311 01:10:28,206 --> 01:10:30,827 BEFORE WE DO WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, OKAY? 1312 01:10:30,827 --> 01:10:33,000 OKAY.AND SEE IF WE CAN GET YOU 1313 01:10:33,000 --> 01:10:35,310 TO COMPLETELY RECOVER FROM THAT 1314 01:10:35,310 --> 01:10:37,206 BEFORE WE DO WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1315 01:10:37,206 --> 01:10:40,793 YOU ALSO LOOK LIKE THAT YOU HAVE SOME GALL BLADDER PROBLEM 1316 01:10:40,793 --> 01:10:42,724 THAT WE MAY HAVE TO ADDRESS THAT, TOO. 1317 01:10:42,724 --> 01:10:44,172 OKAY.OKAY? 1318 01:10:44,172 --> 01:10:47,448 ALRIGHT. BUT THE MEANTIME, I DON'T WANT YOU TO SLIP BACK 1319 01:10:47,448 --> 01:10:49,000 AND START GAINING WEIGHT. 1320 01:10:49,000 --> 01:10:51,137 SO THAT'S GOING TO BE VERY IMPORTANT. 1321 01:10:51,137 --> 01:10:54,379 SO WE'RE GOING TO START DOING SOME MEDICATION FOR YOUR I.B.S., 1322 01:10:54,379 --> 01:10:57,103 AND THEN WE'RE GOING TO SEE HOW YOU'RE DOING IN A MONTH, 1323 01:10:57,103 --> 01:10:59,965 AND I'M GOING TO SEE WHAT KIND OF PROGRESS YOU'RE GONNA MAKE. 1324 01:10:59,965 --> 01:11:01,862 OKAY?OKAY. 1325 01:11:01,862 --> 01:11:04,862 IT MAY TAKE LONGER, EVEN THREE TO SIX MONTH, 1326 01:11:04,862 --> 01:11:07,448 BUT WE'LL SEE HOW YOU RESPOND TO TREATMENT. 1327 01:11:07,448 --> 01:11:09,758 AND AS LONG AS YOU STAY ON TRACK WITH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS, 1328 01:11:09,758 --> 01:11:12,000 WE SEE IF THERE'S ANY WAY WE CAN MOVE AHEAD 1329 01:11:12,000 --> 01:11:13,758 WITH YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY THEN. 1330 01:11:13,758 --> 01:11:17,793 SO MAKE SURE YOU TAKE YOUR MEDICATION AND FOLLOW THE DIET 1331 01:11:17,793 --> 01:11:21,896 AND SEE IF WE CAN GET YOU CHECKED OUT IN ONE MONTH 1332 01:11:21,896 --> 01:11:23,344 AND SEE HOW YOU'RE DOING, OKAY? 1333 01:11:23,344 --> 01:11:25,655 ALRIGHT.ALRIGHT, ASHLEY. 1334 01:11:25,655 --> 01:11:28,137 IN THE MEANTIME, IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, LET ME KNOW. 1335 01:11:28,137 --> 01:11:29,551 OKAY.NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN. 1336 01:11:29,551 --> 01:11:31,103 NICE TO SEE YOU, TOO. 1337 01:11:37,586 --> 01:11:39,482 THAT EXPLAIN THAT PAIN, THOUGH. 1338 01:11:39,482 --> 01:11:43,206 I KNEW THIS BEEN HURTING. 1339 01:11:43,206 --> 01:11:45,586 I'M GLAD TO SEE THAT ASHLEY HAS CONTINUED 1340 01:11:45,586 --> 01:11:47,724 TO MAKE MORE PROGRESS WITH HER WEIGHT LOSS 1341 01:11:47,724 --> 01:11:50,344 AND IS DOWN TO THE 400s NOW. 1342 01:11:50,344 --> 01:11:53,310 AND IF IT WEREN'T FOR THE MEDICAL ISSUES SHE HAS, 1343 01:11:53,310 --> 01:11:56,206 WE WOULD BE MOVING AHEAD WITH HER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1344 01:11:56,206 --> 01:11:59,034 IT WOULDN'T CREATE ANY LIFE- THREATENING SCENARIO FOR HER, 1345 01:11:59,034 --> 01:12:01,586 BUT IT COULD EXAGGERATE AND WORSEN THE PAIN 1346 01:12:01,586 --> 01:12:03,827 SHE HAS FROM IT TO A VERY SEVERE POINT 1347 01:12:03,827 --> 01:12:06,551 THAT COULD BECOME UNBEARABLE FOR HER. 1348 01:12:06,551 --> 01:12:08,724 SO IT'S VERY IMPORTANT WE TREAT HER 1349 01:12:08,724 --> 01:12:11,310 AND RESOLVE THOSE ISSUES FIRST. 1350 01:12:11,310 --> 01:12:15,172 BUT THERE IS NO WAY TO DETERMINE HOW LONG THAT WILL TAKE. 1351 01:12:15,172 --> 01:12:17,827 HOPEFULLY, SHE RESPONDS WELL ENOUGH TO TREATMENT 1352 01:12:17,827 --> 01:12:20,000 TO WHERE WE WILL BE ABLE TO MOVE AHEAD 1353 01:12:20,000 --> 01:12:22,275 WITH HER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY NEXT MONTH. 1354 01:12:22,275 --> 01:12:25,241 BUT IT IS POSSIBLE IT COULD TAKE THREE TO SIX MONTHS 1355 01:12:25,241 --> 01:12:29,241 OR LONGER TO RESOLVE THOSE ISSUE TO THE DEGREE WE NEED. 1356 01:12:29,241 --> 01:12:32,655 AND UNTIL THEN, ASHLEY NEEDS TO STAY MOTIVATED 1357 01:12:32,655 --> 01:12:35,448 AND KEEP LOSING WEIGHT AND MAKING PROGRESS. 1358 01:12:38,758 --> 01:12:42,034 Ashley: THIS IS AN EXTREMELY HARD MOMENT FOR ME, 1359 01:12:42,034 --> 01:12:43,931 TO FIND OUT MY ISSUES HAVE AN EFFECT 1360 01:12:43,931 --> 01:12:45,655 ON MY WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1361 01:12:45,655 --> 01:12:49,206 AND MY BIGGEST FEAR WITH THIS IS THAT I WON'T EVER GET IT. 1362 01:12:49,206 --> 01:12:52,517 SO TODAY IS A STRUGGLE FOR ME, AND I FEEL VERY LET DOWN, 1363 01:12:52,517 --> 01:12:55,137 AND I'M VERY SCARED ABOUT MY FUTURE RIGHT NOW, 1364 01:12:55,137 --> 01:12:57,620 BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS IN THE AIR FOR ME, 1365 01:12:57,620 --> 01:13:00,275 AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE OUTCOME IS GOING TO BE. 1366 01:13:16,724 --> 01:13:19,931 I'VE JUST BEEN STRUGGLING WITH MY WILL AND MOTIVATION 1367 01:13:19,931 --> 01:13:23,413 SINCE SEEING DR. NOW FOR MY UNEXPECTED APPOINTMENT 1368 01:13:23,413 --> 01:13:24,655 WHERE I GOT THE BAD NEWS 1369 01:13:24,655 --> 01:13:27,689 MY SURGERY WAS NEEDING TO BE DELAYED. 1370 01:13:27,689 --> 01:13:31,482 AND I KNOW I'M MAKING MISTAKES I SHOULDN'T BE MAKING RIGHT NOW, 1371 01:13:31,482 --> 01:13:33,620 BUT I FEEL LIKE I GAVE THIS MY ALL 1372 01:13:33,620 --> 01:13:36,586 AND EVERYTHING THAT WAS IN ME TO DO IT, 1373 01:13:36,586 --> 01:13:39,413 EVEN SACRIFICING BEING WITH MY KIDS 1374 01:13:39,413 --> 01:13:41,827 TO ACHIEVE SOMETHING THAT I DID. 1375 01:13:41,827 --> 01:13:45,620 THEN IT FELT LIKE IT WAS TAKEN FROM ME, LIKE I GOT THIS TROPHY, 1376 01:13:45,620 --> 01:13:47,896 AND THEN SOMEONE TOLD ME I COULDN'T KEEP IT 1377 01:13:47,896 --> 01:13:49,482 AND TOOK IT BACK. 1378 01:13:49,482 --> 01:13:53,482 AND THE PAIN OF MISSING MY KIDS AND WHAT I'M HAVING TO GIVE UP 1379 01:13:53,482 --> 01:13:56,620 HAS JUST FELT LIKE MORE WEIGHT TO ME SINCE THEN, 1380 01:13:56,620 --> 01:13:59,517 BECAUSE WHAT IF I'M DOING ALL THAT FOR NOTHING? 1381 01:13:59,517 --> 01:14:02,655 WHAT IF I'M SEPARATING MYSELF FROM MY KIDS 1382 01:14:02,655 --> 01:14:05,586 FOR SOMETHING I'M NEVER GOING TO DO? 1383 01:14:05,586 --> 01:14:09,689 SO THIS HAS JUST BEEN HARD ON ME. 1384 01:14:09,689 --> 01:14:11,137 AND WHAT HELPS ME DEAL WITH THAT, 1385 01:14:11,137 --> 01:14:15,172 WHEN I GET TO A CERTAIN POINT, IS THE COMFORT OF FOOD, 1386 01:14:15,172 --> 01:14:17,241 ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M MISSING MY BABIES, 1387 01:14:17,241 --> 01:14:20,241 BECAUSE I MISS THEM SO GREATLY RIGHT NOW. 1388 01:14:20,241 --> 01:14:23,379 AND THE FEAR THAT THIS COULD ALL BE FOR NOTHING 1389 01:14:23,379 --> 01:14:27,137 JUST GETS OVERWHELMING TO ME. 1390 01:14:27,137 --> 01:14:29,275 SO I'M GIVING IN MORE THAN I SHOULD 1391 01:14:29,275 --> 01:14:32,206 JUST TO SURVIVE WITH MY WORRY 1392 01:14:32,206 --> 01:14:34,103 AND THE PAIN FROM THE SEPARATION I HAVE 1393 01:14:34,103 --> 01:14:36,931 WITH MY CHILDREN AND FAMILY THROUGH THIS, 1394 01:14:36,931 --> 01:14:40,689 BECAUSE THAT'S THE HARDEST FOR ME IN ALL THIS RIGHT NOW, 1395 01:14:40,689 --> 01:14:42,620 AND I JUST WANT TO BE WITH THEM. 1396 01:14:52,758 --> 01:14:56,724 MOM, CAN I TALK TO AMIYAH, PLEASE? 1397 01:14:56,724 --> 01:14:59,034 HI! 1398 01:14:59,034 --> 01:15:02,068 MAMA, YOU STILL GOT IT TOO HIGH. 1399 01:15:02,068 --> 01:15:04,206 HI, AMIYAH! 1400 01:15:04,206 --> 01:15:06,241 MARIE: Give Mommy kiss. Mwah! 1401 01:15:06,241 --> 01:15:08,896 MWAH! 1402 01:15:08,896 --> 01:15:12,034 HI -- I MISS YOU! 1403 01:15:12,034 --> 01:15:14,862 OH, MWAH. 1404 01:15:14,862 --> 01:15:18,413 Aww. She misses her mama. 1405 01:15:18,413 --> 01:15:19,758 Aww. 1406 01:15:33,241 --> 01:15:35,034 OH. 1407 01:15:35,034 --> 01:15:37,137 MWAH. 1408 01:15:40,551 --> 01:15:42,517 HI! 1409 01:15:42,517 --> 01:15:46,000 YOU SMILE SO PRETTY. 1410 01:15:46,000 --> 01:15:48,103 THIS IS SO HARD FOR ME RIGHT NOW, 1411 01:15:48,103 --> 01:15:50,034 BECAUSE EVERY DAY I'M DOING THIS 1412 01:15:50,034 --> 01:15:52,551 IS ANOTHER MOMENT I'M NOT WITH MY KIDS. 1413 01:15:52,551 --> 01:15:55,448 DAMN IT. 1414 01:15:55,448 --> 01:15:57,413 HI, MIYAH. 1415 01:15:59,793 --> 01:16:02,482 I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU, MIYAH. 1416 01:16:02,482 --> 01:16:04,482 ALRIGHT. ALRIGHT. GO EAT YOUR FOOD. 1417 01:16:04,482 --> 01:16:06,793 I LOVE YOU. 1418 01:16:06,793 --> 01:16:08,241 GOODBYE. 1419 01:16:08,241 --> 01:16:09,931 I LOVE YOU. 1420 01:16:09,931 --> 01:16:13,103 AND IT'S HARD TO IGNORE THOSE FEELINGS AND FEARS 1421 01:16:13,103 --> 01:16:16,137 THAT ARE MAKING ME STRUGGLE WITH IT. 1422 01:16:16,137 --> 01:16:20,862 SO I'M JUST NOT SURE IF I HAVE ANY ABILITY TO KEEP DOING THIS, 1423 01:16:20,862 --> 01:16:24,620 AND I'M VERY AFRAID THAT JUST ALL WAS JUST FOR NOTHING 1424 01:16:24,620 --> 01:16:26,931 AND THERE'S NO MORE HOPE FOR ME. 1425 01:16:48,551 --> 01:16:52,103 Ashley: I'M GOING BACK TO DR. NOW WITH MY SISTER AGAIN, 1426 01:16:52,103 --> 01:16:54,137 AND THE HOPE IS THAT THERE HAS BEEN PROGRESS 1427 01:16:54,137 --> 01:16:55,586 WITH MY MEDICAL ISSUES 1428 01:16:55,586 --> 01:16:58,758 TO WHERE I CAN MOVE AHEAD WITH MY SURGERY. 1429 01:16:58,758 --> 01:17:02,724 BUT MY HONEST WORRY IS THAT I'M JUST GETTING MORE BAD NEWS TODAY 1430 01:17:02,724 --> 01:17:05,586 BECAUSE I'M STILL HAVING SOME STOMACH PAINS, 1431 01:17:05,586 --> 01:17:10,413 SO I'M TAKING THAT TO CONCLUDE THE I.B.S. IS STILL AN ISSUE. 1432 01:17:10,413 --> 01:17:12,000 AND I'M ALSO FIGURING MY PROGRESS 1433 01:17:12,000 --> 01:17:14,551 ISN'T GOING TO BE AS MUCH AS THE LAST TIME 1434 01:17:14,551 --> 01:17:16,379 BECAUSE OF HOW I'VE STRUGGLED. 1435 01:17:23,586 --> 01:17:26,206 ASHLEY? 1436 01:17:26,206 --> 01:17:28,586 I WAS DOING REALLY WELL FOR MANY MONTHS, 1437 01:17:28,586 --> 01:17:32,103 AND I WAS DOWN TO 468 LAST TIME, 1438 01:17:32,103 --> 01:17:34,137 AND DR. NOW DIDN'T GIVE ME ANY GOALS 1439 01:17:34,137 --> 01:17:36,413 OTHER THAN TO KEEP LOSING MORE. 1440 01:17:36,413 --> 01:17:38,758 BUT I KNOW MY PROGRESS ISN'T GOING TO BE AS GREAT 1441 01:17:38,758 --> 01:17:40,379 AS IT HAS BEEN EACH TIME 1442 01:17:40,379 --> 01:17:43,586 BECAUSE OF THE SLIP-UPS I HAD WITH MY STRUGGLING, 1443 01:17:43,586 --> 01:17:45,310 SO MY GUESS IS MY PROGRESS 1444 01:17:45,310 --> 01:17:48,931 WILL BE MORE AROUND 5 TO 10 POUNDS OF LOSS TODAY, 1445 01:17:48,931 --> 01:17:52,931 WHICH WOULD BE A SLOWDOWN FOR ME, BUT IT'D STILL BE PROGRESS. 1446 01:18:06,586 --> 01:18:08,379 I'M IN SOME SHOCK AT THAT. 1447 01:18:10,551 --> 01:18:14,724 I KNOW I HAD A LOT OF STRUGGLES THIS PAST MONTH, 1448 01:18:14,724 --> 01:18:16,758 BUT TO SEE SUCH A RISE IN MY NUMBER 1449 01:18:16,758 --> 01:18:20,724 IS A SURPRISE I WASN'T EXPECTING. 1450 01:18:20,724 --> 01:18:22,586 SO I'M JUST A LITTLE OFF-GUARD RIGHT NOW 1451 01:18:22,586 --> 01:18:24,655 AND NOT EVEN SURE WHAT MY THOUGHTS ARE. 1452 01:18:26,724 --> 01:18:28,896 BUT THAT'S VERY WORRISOME TO ME. 1453 01:18:31,068 --> 01:18:33,413 AND MY MIND IS FLUTTERING WITH CONCERNS 1454 01:18:33,413 --> 01:18:37,068 ABOUT WHAT THIS MEANS FOR ME WITH NEXT STEPS 1455 01:18:37,068 --> 01:18:40,068 AND WHAT THOUGHTS DR. NOW IS GOING TO HAVE ABOUT ME NOW. 1456 01:18:54,034 --> 01:18:56,172 I'M WORRIED ABOUT MY TESTING 1457 01:18:56,172 --> 01:18:59,482 AND MY MEDICAL ISSUES, 1458 01:18:59,482 --> 01:19:03,517 BUT THIS IS THE ISSUE THAT'S ON THE FRONT OF MY MIND RIGHT NOW 1459 01:19:03,517 --> 01:19:05,448 AND THAT'S GIVING ME THE MOST FEAR. 1460 01:19:16,931 --> 01:19:18,689 HELLO.HI. 1461 01:19:18,689 --> 01:19:21,482 HOW Y'ALL DOING?ALRIGHT. HOW ARE YOU? 1462 01:19:21,482 --> 01:19:22,655 GOOD. 1463 01:19:22,655 --> 01:19:24,793 SO, ASHLEY, YOU NEED TO STAY ON TRACK 1464 01:19:24,793 --> 01:19:27,655 AND TRY TO LOSE WEIGHT 1465 01:19:27,655 --> 01:19:30,103 SO WE CAN MOVE AHEAD WITH YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY 1466 01:19:30,103 --> 01:19:32,724 AS SOON AS WE RESOLVE YOUR MEDICAL ISSUES. 1467 01:19:32,724 --> 01:19:35,448 BUT WITH THE WEIGHT GAIN OF 34 POUNDS IN A MONTH, 1468 01:19:35,448 --> 01:19:38,103 IT LOOKS LIKE YOU'RE GOING OFF THE RAILS. 1469 01:19:38,103 --> 01:19:40,655 SO YOU WANT TO TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON? 1470 01:19:40,655 --> 01:19:44,724 WELL, A LOT OF IT IS THE STRESS AND WORRYING ABOUT MY SURGERY 1471 01:19:44,724 --> 01:19:46,724 AND IF I'M GOING TO GET IT. 1472 01:19:46,724 --> 01:19:51,379 SO STRESS EATING IS THE EXCUSE AGAIN FOR YOU, HUH? 1473 01:19:51,379 --> 01:19:53,068 IT'S JUST HARD. 1474 01:19:53,068 --> 01:19:56,172 OKAY. WELL, YOUR ULTRASOUND AND TESTS SHOW 1475 01:19:56,172 --> 01:19:57,896 THAT WE ARE MAKING SOME PROGRESS 1476 01:19:57,896 --> 01:20:00,379 TO SUCCESSFULLY TREAT YOUR I.B.S. 1477 01:20:00,379 --> 01:20:03,068 BUT NOW THE ISSUE IS WE HAVE TO RESOLVE THAT 1478 01:20:03,068 --> 01:20:05,655 ON TOP OF GETTING YOU BACK ON TRACK WITH YOUR WEIGHT LOSS 1479 01:20:05,655 --> 01:20:07,620 AND PROVING TO ME YOU'RE STICKING WITH THAT 1480 01:20:07,620 --> 01:20:09,586 LIKE YOU NEED AGAIN. 1481 01:20:09,586 --> 01:20:11,965 SO YOU ARE MAKING YOUR SITUATION WORSE. 1482 01:20:11,965 --> 01:20:13,517 AND IF YOU CONTINUE LIKE THIS, 1483 01:20:13,517 --> 01:20:17,000 IT WILL ONLY TAKE A FEW MONTHS FOR YOU TO COMPLETELY UNDO 1484 01:20:17,000 --> 01:20:18,724 ALL THE WEIGHT LOSS YOU HAVE MADE. 1485 01:20:18,724 --> 01:20:19,965 YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? 1486 01:20:19,965 --> 01:20:21,517 YES, I DO. 1487 01:20:21,517 --> 01:20:24,517 OKAY. WE'LL CONTINUE TO TREAT YOU FOR I.B.S. 1488 01:20:24,517 --> 01:20:27,482 TO RESOLVE THAT ISSUE AND GET IT UNDER CONTROL. 1489 01:20:27,482 --> 01:20:29,586 AND WHAT I NEED TO SEE FROM YOU NOW 1490 01:20:29,586 --> 01:20:33,241 IS I WANT YOU TO LOSE 80 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT TWO MONTHS AGAIN. 1491 01:20:33,241 --> 01:20:35,448 AND IF YOU DO THAT, YOU GET BACK ON TRACK, 1492 01:20:35,448 --> 01:20:37,655 ONCE WE RESOLVE YOUR MEDICAL ISSUES, 1493 01:20:37,655 --> 01:20:40,000 WE CAN MOVE AHEAD WITH YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 1494 01:20:40,000 --> 01:20:42,206 BUT IF YOU DON'T, THEN WE WON'T. 1495 01:20:42,206 --> 01:20:43,413 YOU UNDERSTAND THAT? 1496 01:20:43,413 --> 01:20:44,689 YES. 1497 01:20:44,689 --> 01:20:46,172 OKAY. GREAT. 1498 01:20:46,172 --> 01:20:49,206 ALRIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS. 1499 01:20:49,206 --> 01:20:51,448 IN THE MEANTIME, IF YOU NEED ANYTHING, GIVE ME A CALL. 1500 01:20:51,448 --> 01:20:53,379 THANK YOU.ALRIGHT. 1501 01:20:59,448 --> 01:21:02,172 Tiffanie: YOU REALLY ARE GOING TO HAVE TO BACK UP SOME MORE 1502 01:21:02,172 --> 01:21:04,103 ON WHAT YOU'RE DOING...MM-HMM. 1503 01:21:04,103 --> 01:21:06,482 ...'CAUSE YOU HAVE TO SHRINK THAT LEVEL. 1504 01:21:06,482 --> 01:21:07,551 YEAH. 1505 01:21:07,551 --> 01:21:10,482 THERE IS NOBODY'S FAULT BUT YOURS. 1506 01:21:10,482 --> 01:21:14,448 IT'S WHEN WE DON'T TAKE ACCOUNTABILITY FOR OURSELVES. 1507 01:21:14,448 --> 01:21:16,379 THAT GETS --WHO FIX MY FOOD? 1508 01:21:18,931 --> 01:21:23,206 I TRY TO DROP KNOWLEDGE ON YOU, AND YOU STILL FIGHT ME. 1509 01:21:23,206 --> 01:21:25,000 IT'S SO --I'M NOT GOING BACK AND FORTH. 1510 01:21:25,000 --> 01:21:26,206 I'M NOT DOING THIS. 1511 01:21:27,448 --> 01:21:30,172 ALRIGHT, TIFFANIE. OKAY. WHATEVER. 1512 01:21:34,862 --> 01:21:37,655 Dr. Nowzaradan: I'M VERY DISAPPOINTED TO NOT ONLY SEE A WEIGHT GAIN 1513 01:21:37,655 --> 01:21:40,758 FROM ASHLEY AT THIS POINT, BUT ALSO WITH THE AMOUNT 1514 01:21:40,758 --> 01:21:43,551 SHE GAINED IN SUCH A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME, 1515 01:21:43,551 --> 01:21:48,275 BECAUSE A 34-POUND GAIN IN ONE MONTH IS VERY CONCERNING. 1516 01:21:48,275 --> 01:21:51,689 SO MY HOPE IS THAT THIS WAS JUST A TEMPORARY STRUGGLE 1517 01:21:51,689 --> 01:21:55,068 AND NOT THE BEGINNING OF HER FALLING BACK INTO HER OLD HABIT 1518 01:21:55,068 --> 01:21:59,206 OF USING STRESS AS AN EXCUSE TO JUSTIFY HER OVEREATING. 1519 01:21:59,206 --> 01:22:02,172 HER I.B.S. IS SOMETHING WE STILL NEED TO FINISH ADDRESSING 1520 01:22:02,172 --> 01:22:03,413 AND FULLY TREAT 1521 01:22:03,413 --> 01:22:05,965 BEFORE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY IS AN OPTION AGAIN, 1522 01:22:05,965 --> 01:22:08,448 AND THAT STILL COULD TAKE MONTHS. 1523 01:22:08,448 --> 01:22:09,931 BUT EVEN IF WE DO THAT, 1524 01:22:09,931 --> 01:22:13,000 IF ASHLEY DOESN'T GET BACK ON TRACK WITH HER WEIGHT LOSS, 1525 01:22:13,000 --> 01:22:15,931 SURGERY WILL STILL NOT BE AN OPTION FOR HER. 1526 01:22:15,931 --> 01:22:19,172 SO THE NEXT FEW MONTHS WILL DETERMINE WHETHER ASHLEY 1527 01:22:19,172 --> 01:22:22,827 IS GOING TO BE ABLE TO GET BACK TO WHERE SHE NEEDS TO SUCCEED 1528 01:22:22,827 --> 01:22:25,586 OR IF SHE'S GOING TO CONTINUE TO SPIRAL OUT OF CONTROL 1529 01:22:25,586 --> 01:22:27,206 UNTIL SHE SELF-DESTRUCTS 1530 01:22:27,206 --> 01:22:32,310 AND LOSES HER CHANCE TO GET HEALTHY AND SAVE HER LIFE. 1531 01:22:32,310 --> 01:22:34,517 Ashley: THIS MOMENT TODAY, BEING BEFORE THE SCALE 1532 01:22:34,517 --> 01:22:38,241 AND HEARING WHAT DR. NOW SAID, REALLY SHOOK ME A LOT. 1533 01:22:38,241 --> 01:22:41,275 AND I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO WHERE I WAS NOW. 1534 01:22:41,275 --> 01:22:44,137 SO I KNOW I HAVE TO GO AND START TO SEARCH MY SOUL 1535 01:22:44,137 --> 01:22:46,896 TO FIND MY STRENGTH AGAIN, BECAUSE IT WAS SHOCKING 1536 01:22:46,896 --> 01:22:50,517 TO SEE HOW FAST I WENT BACK THE OTHER WAY. 1537 01:22:50,517 --> 01:22:52,758 AND I CAN'T LET THAT HAPPEN TO MYSELF. 1538 01:22:52,758 --> 01:22:54,931 SO I HAVE TO FIND A WAY TO GET RIGHT AGAIN 1539 01:22:54,931 --> 01:22:56,896 BEFORE I GET MORE OUT OF CONTROL. 1540 01:23:07,448 --> 01:23:08,758 COME ON. 1541 01:23:08,758 --> 01:23:10,586 LET'S GO FOR A WALK. 1542 01:23:10,586 --> 01:23:12,034 ALRIGHT. 1543 01:23:17,172 --> 01:23:18,689 YOU WANT TO TAKE YOUR WALKER? 1544 01:23:18,689 --> 01:23:20,862 YEAH, PROBABLY, 1545 01:23:20,862 --> 01:23:25,862 BECAUSE MY LEG IS HURTING. 1546 01:23:25,862 --> 01:23:27,551 FOR THE PAST MONTH, I BEEN FOCUSED 1547 01:23:27,551 --> 01:23:29,862 ON GETTING BACK TO WHERE I NEED, 1548 01:23:29,862 --> 01:23:34,482 AND TIFFANIE HAS BEEN A BIG SUPPORT TO ME IN DOING THAT. 1549 01:23:34,482 --> 01:23:36,413 SHE WAS SHOOK WITH SEEING THE GAIN I HAD 1550 01:23:36,413 --> 01:23:38,034 AT MY APPOINTMENT, TOO, 1551 01:23:38,034 --> 01:23:41,793 SO SHE'S BEEN AN ENCOURAGEMENT, HELPING ME TO BE MORE POSITIVE 1552 01:23:41,793 --> 01:23:44,379 AND FOCUS ON GETTING RIGHT AGAIN. 1553 01:23:44,379 --> 01:23:46,000 BUT IT'S STILL A STRUGGLE, 1554 01:23:46,000 --> 01:23:49,448 AND I DO HAVE A HARD TIME WITH NEGATIVITY AT MOMENTS, 1555 01:23:49,448 --> 01:23:51,482 BECAUSE ALL THOSE FEARS AND WORRIES I HAVE 1556 01:23:51,482 --> 01:23:53,551 AREN'T JUST GOING TO GO AWAY. 1557 01:23:53,551 --> 01:23:55,241 COME ON. 1558 01:23:55,241 --> 01:23:59,379 COME ON. 1559 01:23:59,379 --> 01:24:01,448 CATCH YOU, AND I'LL RUN YOU OVER. 1560 01:24:04,068 --> 01:24:06,241 AND I'M STILL STRUGGLING WITH THE SETBACK. 1561 01:24:06,241 --> 01:24:09,620 BUT WHAT I REALIZE IS HOW I'M NOT READY TO GIVE UP. 1562 01:24:09,620 --> 01:24:12,379 SEEING MY WEIGHT GAIN WAS A MOMENT OF REALIZATION 1563 01:24:12,379 --> 01:24:15,000 OF HOW BADLY I DON'T WANT TO LOSE THIS. 1564 01:24:15,000 --> 01:24:18,068 SO I'M SEARCHING MY SOUL TO KEEP FINDING MY MOTIVATION, 1565 01:24:18,068 --> 01:24:20,379 AND, MOST OF THE TIME, THAT'S MY KIDS, 1566 01:24:20,379 --> 01:24:23,137 AND I KNOW I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR THEM. 1567 01:24:23,137 --> 01:24:25,206 DR. NOW SAYS THAT IT COULD TAKE MONTHS 1568 01:24:25,206 --> 01:24:27,068 TO GET TO WHERE MY MEDICAL ISSUES 1569 01:24:27,068 --> 01:24:29,241 AND MY I.B.S. ARE TREATED ENOUGH 1570 01:24:29,241 --> 01:24:31,827 TO WHERE I COULD HAVE MY SURGERY WITHOUT ISSUES, 1571 01:24:31,827 --> 01:24:34,448 SO THAT COULD BE A LONG TIME. 1572 01:24:34,448 --> 01:24:36,482 SO MY FOCUS IS BACK TO HIT THE GOAL 1573 01:24:36,482 --> 01:24:38,310 TO SHOW HIM I'M BACK ON TRACK, 1574 01:24:38,310 --> 01:24:40,862 AND THAT MEANS I'M STRICT WITH MY DIET LIKE I WAS 1575 01:24:40,862 --> 01:24:43,344 AND EXERCISING EVERY DAY AGAIN. 1576 01:24:43,344 --> 01:24:46,103 AND WHEN THE DARK MOMENTS THAT LED ME TO STRUGGLING COME, 1577 01:24:46,103 --> 01:24:49,448 MY SISTER SAYS WE'RE JUST GOING TO GET OUTSIDE AND BE ACTIVE 1578 01:24:49,448 --> 01:24:51,965 UNTIL THEY GO BACK TO WHERE THEY CAME FROM. 1579 01:24:55,586 --> 01:24:56,724 MM. 1580 01:24:56,724 --> 01:24:58,482 IT'S BEEN A MINUTE, HUH? 1581 01:24:58,482 --> 01:24:59,551 CATCH IT. 1582 01:24:59,551 --> 01:25:02,000 OH, SHE'S STILL GOT SOMETHING. 1583 01:25:02,000 --> 01:25:03,551 OH! 1584 01:25:03,551 --> 01:25:06,758 HOLD ON. 1585 01:25:06,758 --> 01:25:09,620 YOU GOT UP! 1586 01:25:09,620 --> 01:25:12,137 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TOMORROW HOLDS FOR ME. 1587 01:25:12,137 --> 01:25:15,103 ALL I KNOW IS THAT I'M NOT READY TO GIVE UP. 1588 01:25:15,103 --> 01:25:18,793 SO I'M GOING TO KEEP FINDING IT WITHIN ME TO KEEP PUSHING HARD 1589 01:25:18,793 --> 01:25:22,448 SO I CAN KEEP MOVING FORWARD HOWEVER MUCH I CAN 1590 01:25:22,448 --> 01:25:24,034 AND GIVE MYSELF FAITH AND HOPE 1591 01:25:24,034 --> 01:25:27,310 THAT IF I DO THAT MY HARDEST AND I KEEP FIGHTING, 1592 01:25:27,310 --> 01:25:29,034 THAT I'LL BE ABLE TO MAKE IT 1593 01:25:29,034 --> 01:25:31,413 AND THAT I'LL HAVE THAT LIFE I'M WORKING TO 1594 01:25:31,413 --> 01:25:32,344 FOR ME AND MY KIDS.